Walls

What are those walls?
I wondered.

Why are them getting higher..

Somehow, read some sign and symptoms of ppl who needs help from psychologist.
I got some of them! LOL!!

So I am a physco who needs help.
Ehem, sometimes I wonder what am I thinking?

Talk

End of the day :)

Well was blaming quite a lot today..
Was blaming why so damn many gossips in this world. LOL!
And blaming why need to turn everything so complicated. LOL!

That's not good though.

Should have think from another angle?
I admit I always have different point of view, different feelings and different thoughts.

I just couldn't understand why? Haha
I don't understand why I need to take care of other ppl's business. I mean I am not qualified enough to judge anyone. I listened to one side and I don't get to know what's happening the other side. That's the reason why I don't want to take either side. That's the reason why I don't want to involve in it. So they think I am so naive because I never met such complicated, hard situation. And they thought I am so pure little girl who lives inside my own world and first time exposé to such scary,dramatic situation. Zzz
Ehem, perhaps that's a good thing to make myself look as dumb as possible , as naive as possible. LOL! So that I can get myself clear from all those gossips.

So I continue to laugh and jokes around. LOL, that's the way to make myself out of those things I don't want to encounter.

That's not the life I want.

Anyway, no offense but u don't even know 5% of me, so just don't talk like u understand me well. Erm, u don't. Coz u know keeping quiet doesn't mean I agree and laughing around doesn't mean u are correct too. Just am lazy to talk so much to u.

Well, peace still, I am not a soft hearted girl nor girl without own stand. I am stronger than u can imagine. So, don't mess up with me. Lol, I am not that kind seriously.

思。

好累。

要不受影响还真的有点难。

让我到世界的另一个角落看看好吗？
我想让思想无限宽大。
我不想在框框里。
也不想只懂得纸上谈兵。

嘿，飞翔是什么样的感觉？
嘿，你看见过另一个自己吗？
你到过别人的思想里吗？
嘿，你一定没有到过我的宇宙吧？

因为，你没有看见我的星空在发光发热。
因为， 你不懂得我的梦想。

无尽头的想象。没有边界的天空。

Followers

I don't understand why adults need to make every simple things complicated.

I thought society is meant for fun, skills development , togetherness and teamwork?

LOL, why we need to compete for power?
Why we need to judge everyone ?

Every adults has to turn into this?

Well, I guess I will be a weird adult then. LOL.

Another thought, be different is kinda hard to survive as everyone follow the trend so that they won't be reject outside the gang.
Is it so?

And why do I need to follow?

Pure.

Sometimes I wondered. What have I done? Or what's all the reasons?

Well, there's some kind of misunderstanding I would say as we judge before we understand each other.

Somehow I really doesn't want to care how to make bond btw each other stronger and all those stuff. Not keen in it.
Have tried to do it but i guess I stop doing it since last semester.

Hmm, is not giving up on friendship or what. Just sometimes u tried so hard to treat someone with all your heart but in the end that ppl just thinks that u are funny.

Well, every kind of relationship involves both parties I believe.

I am thinking whether my ignorance cause any harms or not. Somehow keep quiet and explain nth when there's misunderstanding or what.

That's not how I treat friends actually. I like to be honest , that's what friends are.
But honesty seemed doesn't being appreciate pretty much.

I don't feel the urge to have any pillow talk either. There are so many different kind of people in this society that u can't be naive anymore to trust everyone and throw ur inner feelings to anyone whenever u want to.

Why so complicated? I wondered.
I rather being dumb enough to observer nth than being sensitive to see things and know things that I don't want to.
Coz that will make u disappoint and upset. I still want to believe in the everyone is an angel theory.

Maybe change it to everyone is an angel deep inside their heart? Maybe they didn't show it out but they are still angel despite other things else.

Those angels.

I am happy to have a bunch of friends who never failed to make me laugh.
Even through text they can made me laughed like mad. LOL!

Thanks god, I got to know them in my life :)

And thanks god for letting me to meet so many wonderful people throughout my life journey. Super great to know awesome people ❤

她

就是会有那么一个人，总是把你当后备，把你平时的关怀无视。然后在没有人为他留下时，才对你好。
我很害怕我像这样的人。所以宁愿一个人，也不要在需要的时候才懂得寻找着别人。

似乎人缘好也不代表什么。因为我还是只听见她的好话却看不见她的真心。朋友不是这样当的。不只是奉承与随便的关心。

对你好不是理所当然，只是因为同情，因为不想当和你一样类型的人。

请用心，而不是只有文字。
一堆的文字，谁都会写，但你做到了吗？

时刻提醒，别犯和她一样的错。

Well, me

I used to keep quiet when I met someone who don't understand me but thinks that she or he do understand me well. Ngek ngek xD

Pyscoanalysis of characteristic doesn't apply on me. And observation of body language doesn't apply on me too. U can only use your heart to understand me if u want to.

And I don't correct misinterpretation or misunderstanding. Perhaps someday you will know if u aren't just a passer-by of my life :)

Exchange

So I went to this exchange program interview today.

Honestly, I tried so hard to apply for it last semester during my final exam. At last due to it might need me to extend my program I simply send my application without hoping being selected.

So I got this sudden call from international center telling me to go for interview and I was like huh? What interview?

So without any preparation, I went to this super far international center for my interview. LOL, god knows how HUGE is my Uni. I didn't know my Uni actually has south and north campus until today I saw the map of my Uni. zzzz why is my Uni so huge ? @.@

LOL, the interview session is quite relaxing actually. I feel like I am asking information more than being interviewed.
But then I guess I got very little chance to be selected. They asked me who's the chancellor for my Uni and who's the dean for my faculty. LOL, seriously??!!
I said I don't know. LOL! Then they said huh? U can't just know who's ur lecturer's name.
And I was whispering in my heart, I didn't even know who's my lecturer's name. XD
I don't rmb ppl's name when they are strange to me. which i know that's bad.

So mainly I asked more questions than they do and this is great experience for me. At least I will study everything about upm next time before I go for interview.


So, I still got my big dreams and yes, I want to be a better me.
Everyone I met, things I saw, situation that i encounters, are chances of learning for me.

Attitude and mindset still the everything for me:)

Life can be so much fun when u learn Sth new everyday!

：）

总相信单纯，善良的存在。
别因为看见社会的现实后便对人性的美好丧失信心。
真心的人还是有的。
别一味认定了每个人都是势利的，而用相同的方法处事。

总觉得，世界不该那么灰。
人性本善。
要改变，从自己开始。

Seriously, 发泄 doesn't mean talking it out for me, for now. Lol

Zzz.
Speechless.

Well, have had a conversation with friend day before. Talking about expressing.

Duh, expressing doesn't work for me.
I tried but I guess I will just keep it back to myself.
LOL, after all I still can handle by myself.

Insecure? Quarrel? Frightened or what?

:( I wish I can help but what happened?

In the middle of the night.
I am worry..

💚

What a tiring day :)

Get ill actually.. Feel exhausted and oh, I actually had a fever. LOL.

Went to acting class and have a great laugh. Although I am not familiar with the gang and I might be a quiet girl among them , I still feel happy and have so much fun v them :)

The challenge is I really couldn't act as a
Cute Lil kid.
This is hard to me. LOL. But I will try my best:)

Well, I looked like a first year student to most of the people. LOL. Good or bad?
Anyway, I am not good at socializing.
Haha, I tried to change that but it's kinda hard for me to be friendly suddenly coz that's not me. So I guess everyone has their own unique personality. And mine is like tht, being quiet at first and yes, I make friends with heart. I can have playmates but I couldn't have long chat and serious talk v them. Haha. So I don't have a dozen of so called best best friends but a few is more than enough for me :)


Feel thankful that I learnt something today. And yes, now is the time for me to revise what have I done right and wrong during the whole day.


I guess I look myself too important and gonna learn to be more humble. Plus do not ever judge anyone. :)

Gayao for a better day and better me

Smiley

Life is truly beautiful when you have positive thinkings.

And yea, found so many little things that made me smile :)

Yes, I am happy.

Thanks a lot for people who smiled to me, generous enough to give me compliment and courage, thanks to people who talked to me, teach me new things.

I am appreciating every single thing in my life. Well, life can be wonderful and it depends on the inner you. You got the choice.

:) well, a busy yet meaningful day I have.

Change your mind and you can change the world. This is true :)

昂贵

境随心转。

安静的力量不容忽视。沟通不见了，然后关系可想而知。最害怕如此的场面。的却宁愿一人承担所有。然后便不会有人议论纷纷，是谁对谁错。但，人的想法又何此简单。
所以沉默了。想要面面俱全的确困难。

我的立场来来去去只有人格。一件小事上也不能容许人格的一点败坏。因为心中明白，勿以为恶小而不为之。的确，很小很小的事情，是很少人会计较对与错，因为就算用错的方法解决也不会带来什么坏结果。

这，就是我不想自己犯下的错。 对，也许别人会觉得我把是太想得太严重，但这是我要做到的。人格，品格。我希望我能做到。

再下来，就真的万分感谢伸出援手的朋友。无论是行动还是言语上。谢谢。：）

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