Legs pain like hell. Lol
Muscle cramp. So weak my stamina. Zzz

But those things are more fan
Argh, why the stupid pc fair gam gea...

Lol someone is so free. I tot shouldn't be.
Anyway I dont want to ask why
Just sigh when I saw that.

Ran whole kl today
And we won the first prize
Happy me!
Ran like being chased behind
Haha tired but because of determination I didn't let myself to stop
Keep going and keep going
Thanks to team mates! Cooperate well with each other
Have fun have laughters and yes I have a super fun and tiring day.
Nth is impossible, ya, I can do it if I want to.
So tell myself that I can! Not hesitating to do things that I want
Woohoo ~
Great things ahead!
Thanks those who trust me without any hesitation. Their trust on me are so important to build up my confident:)

Say no words.

不多说，有些倔强是无法改变的。
唯有忘记，唯有忽略。

Swallowing
Breathing fast to keep everything inside
It's hard. So hard.

Truly and deeply

Liv

Being scolded because ppl don't rmb.
That's sad.
Anyway take a deep breath, and ya it's okay.
All these do make me tougher and stronger.

Again.
Have no words.


Smiley?

Liv

Still dream of being approved
Hmm was nervous bout that
If if if I am that lucky what will happens next?
Will people here forgot bout me after such a long time?
Anyway I wish I wish my dreams come true, finger crossed

Liv

Different views and thinkings perhaps?
Keep quiet again.
:) anyway I accept other different kind of thoughts just I still have my own thinkings and I guess no one got the right to say ppl's ideas are right or wrong.
Just difference. :) who
Will accept completely my own thinking ? I wondered.

Shine

I wanna go home too!!
Thought to have a free Saturday but.. Ehem there's job awaiting
Dreaming of next Saturday. Start from next week onwards I freeeee~
I guess so.. Haha
And my plan can be started soon :D
Wohoo~ tasted busy life and late sleep
So thanks god:) He heard me :D
Shine:)

Woke up by phone calls. Things aren't being settle yet.
Complications still here due to happened last night
I have no words.
To comfort or to hide and pretend I don't know anything
I guess I still with put on the
Smiley face and be clown.
Hope people will be happy again.
Why human have so much inner feelings
Anyway I willing to do things
In exchange for
Their smiles.
After all I should have keep quiet.
Not to tell them my feelings. Aiks should know that feelings after one incident should be kept if not the outcome will be like this. Influenced people emotions and made them feel that way too.. Zzz. Learnt a lesson perhaps? Keep quiet lol

Squeeze my time to do my own things
Wish me dreams come true

Be positive?
I guess I have tried very very hard
But. Haih
To tell who?
I guess I have to swallow instead of telling
Anyway who cares?
LOL maybe that's what make me strong

Argh~ tired yet lots of things are still waiting for me.zzzz

I miss home
I miss talking complaining blaming to mummy and she will said try ur best will do
I miss when I talked so long like an old lady she still listened so patiently
And keep ask me then how is it what happened next
Made me feel I am so important for her
I miss going to daddy and he will hug me no matter what
I just miss when I have listener who really willing to listen to me...
I found no listener because everyone likes to tell their own things but they don't care what happened on other people.
So I guess I can be a good listener xD
At least I listen, I do know when theres someone who make u feel they really wanna listen to u, u will feel so glad so so glad.
Anyway, no listener so I blog
Make them into words perhaps.
Lol.
Okay done with my craps
Back to works :)

No looking down on ppl please
Even one percent of don't trust ppl's ability or hesitate, I will leave.
Even one percent.
Don't lower my confidence again i have not much left.

Lol exploded finally
Guess only roomie und my feelings
Anyway blaming is over so leave everything behind
I don't want rumors gossips or anything
I want peace
Whatever it is I still do my very best
Long sigh ...... What can I do .

Haih tried so hard

Another late night.
I hope I did help things to run smooth
I don't hope to be labelled as useless.
Everything is such a rush and many things I still blur of
I hope I can come out v something good.
And always feel thankful no matter what
Always rmb that nobody has the responsibility to help u , must thank them because they willing to sacrifice their time to help out.
Thanks. Really.
I know I am not the best not those leader who can produce something big and amazing
But I am trying trying to do the very best
No longer feels tired. Unknown feels instead.

It's late night
Wish to blog awhile anyway
Everything comes to me at once
Life is getting busier
I know it's Sth I must go through
Especially relationships
Organizing events and activities need relationships need socializing
And u never know what's that face mean what that tone mean
Lol I don't wanna know though
Just keeping quiet in front of them
I will do my best part
Only said so so much to housemate roommate after all
But I am thinking should I tell them
All my feelings about things I heard and saw
I dislike really dislike ppl talk bad about my friends
They aren't who they think
But I just keep quiet
Am thinking why should people categorize others as active only when they join activities and nerd to those who do their own things freely
I like activities which are not being tied by rules I love creativity but not repeating the same thing over and over again. Too many rules and some rules and useless.

What's the objective having an event.i guess everyone forgot about the objective they did it because it need to be done. Lol what's for where's the meaning. I am not joining myself if I am not organizer.
Why must we being tied inside a square box
Anyway was keeping quiet
I love peace more I love simple more
I choose what I like
Don't judge when u don't know anything
U never know I can do Sth big too
I will. Create things I like!
Gayao! Gonna finish my job as good as I can.
Then i want to keep busy in another way
:) smile! And forgot.

I want to fly to another land
Air ticket why are u so expensive
Zzzz

I did pray for people I have promised.
May everything goes smooth as what you wish for.

Fear

Another stage of fear I had. Form six I am scared of mask. Scared of so many rumors gossips
And here, I am afraid because I have no idea who are talking from bottom of their hearts except for few.
Scare of people who smile but act differently from behind.
Too many . I don't wish to know. Don't wish to react. I just wish to be simple .
That's all. I don't treat u good because I can get benefit from u. I don't want to fake a smile..


Anyway life has many ways of testing a people's will either by having nth happen at all or by having everything happen all at once.
So things happen all at once to me.
Rush here and there to settle things.
Have no time for emotions.
Until now, sat down and ya, things aren't smooth. Relationships, friendship, those gossips those rumors faces everything.
Lol. I und why some ppl are born to travel all around the world. I hope to be like that too. Free of
Everything .do things that I like but not being tied by managements systems and rules.

The fear inside I will hide as good as I can. Hmm keep my mouth shut except for saying necessary things.
Unless I won't say a word.
Lol.

Deep breath.
Hold on and stand firm
Go through!

:)

Starting v a busy life? Hmm I am not sure about that. I have many activities on hand, College activities pop out somemore and again suddenly being called out to be a director.
Ya I will try my best to do every part of mine but sometimes things aren't going that smooth. And ya my weakness, showed up again.
Trying to cope between activities and academic. I don't wish to be just nutritionist. I wish to be Sth else. More than that. Thinking big huh?
LOL. I asking myself why aren't I trying to accept and take every chance being a leader when I wanna think big for my future.I guess I am not confident enough have no faith in myself
:/ hmm..
I am so lucky actually when they heard I am the director immediately they said they will be my ajks to help me. Thanks :) really it means a lot.
Thanks u guys for being supportive and helpful
Anyway gonna gayao
Too many exams and activities happening continuously . Non stop
I love being busy very busy
God heard me:) thanks lord.
Finger crossed!

Dare not ....

Swollen.
Try harder perhaps.

The struggles

The relationship between human

There's a link between humans
No one is an isolated body, we linked to each other
But why there's people who can't accept the others..
The boycott the teases and the blames.
Misunderstandings perhaps?
I hope I can help
Even that particular ppl did something wrong, she or he doesn't deserve to be boycott I guess
Try to imagine if that's u who being boycott.. That kind of sadness..
That's hurts a lot
I don't know what's happening the stories behind but I did know your sadness and helpless
I do support u even if u have fault also
Haih , I just feel terrible
If I imagine myself as the one being boycott and nobody there to talk. Nobody cares and everyone ignore because that's none of their business
I don't want to interfere things happened in between but I do wish that I can support or help.
:/ being boycott is terrible. Please for god sake, don't let people have that kind of feeling.
U can ignore when u dislike but.. Maybe u can forgive and forget..
I don't know. Just be good .

Lol.
Who cares?

Never mind.

Lol.
Who cares?

So be as numb as possible
That's good.
Whoever said It's not good to be like wood u are wrong
Feelingless is good to avoid any kind of disappointments.
LOL.

ready.... and go!

Need some faith some determinations to be good and kind to people who dont seems like appreciating.

=D make dreams come true, yes going to make things real instead of just thinking.

GAHHH , gayao!

First year

Giving support to a friend who went for study.
Her first year in Uni.
Make me think back how have I gone through my first year.
LOL. I am second year now. Zzz why so fast.
Didn't get too nervous or home sick when I first get into Uni.
Maybe I know I can go home so easy if I want to. But then the Uni life is not what I have dreamt of.
Something different.
So mostly I remembered I blamed a lot.
I blamed the food the transport the activities the lectures the system the wifi.
Gosh I am such a bad girl LOL
So except for the hostel I dislike other things in the Uni.i tried to find joys over there but I just can't get myself enjoy in the activities. I don't like those activities seriously.
So I became the one who have so much hatred inside me.
I found a place where I can calm myself where I can comfort myself.
And Everytime I wish to be alone I went there. To see the mother nature to think how lucky am I having chance to get into Uni. Not using parents money and have such a great environment to learn independent and to build a better attitude.
That's my secret place lol where there are less passer by
But somehow there's still people passed by and looked at me this weird girl. LOL.
Anyway. I gone through the first year. There's still memories for me. Good one. I miss that. I met good people had good times v them. There's still moments that I like :)
I met awesome people who I talked a lot with who gave me chance to know them more. I met people who tried to cheer me and made me smile. I met people who sent me food and notes to brighten up my days. I met people who accept my craziness who tolerate when I yell and sing and dance like a Sakai. I met people who tease me and I tease them back but we still messing around with each other. I met people who are forever kind to lend helping hands but doesnt ask for help when she is in hard time :/ I met people who are so cheerful that always smile and laugh. I met people who are so quiet but she had her own dream. I met all kinds of people and all of them are kind. So kind. :)
And oh ya, I met seniors who are super good to me. They gave me chances to be a leader to learn things and to make things great. They have me encouragement and confidence that I lack of all these time.
So why should I blame?
After that one whole year, I did learnt things that I never know. I did regret once why I didn't try harder to appeal for Singapore Uni ?
But then I know this belongs to me.
I should trust path that I have chosen
I should enjoy rather than hating
Should appreciate rather than blame
:) so girl, appreciate, there's a reason why u are at where you are :)
Shine and fly high !

No I don't trust anyone except my family.
And ya I don't believe in love. I am extremist lol

要对一个人好很容易，但要对一个人永远好就很难了。

聆听成人们的对话。

是另一种想法，另一个世界。

也许毫不在乎是因为心中另有自己想要的。

不是这些，也许一直留白的一直坚持不上色的是因为明白一但开始将失去简单。

也许坚持保留自由，因为不想拥有牵挂。

也许口中的潇洒是因为根本不明白里头的一切。

或是不懂得该怎么表达。

毕竟每个人的思绪不一样，想传达的信息也许通过文字会变成另一种负担。

其实很简单，我想要所有人开心。

但偏偏这，好难。

所以我好喜欢小孩，他们就是可以没有理由的大笑。

就是可以没有烦恼的倒头就睡。

所以我好爱接近小孩，像他们一样， 傻笑，乱蹦乱跳。

幼稚地作弄别人，无厘头地自言自语。

什么也不晓得，笨笨的多好。

但，长大后，有些事必须明白，必须处理。

然后面对，解决。有些话必须说必须理解。

微笑，对吗？

至少身边围绕的朋友都很好。

谢谢，让我遇见这么多很棒的人。