1.1

New year rocks and everything starts from Zero!
But...Alright, why now.
New year starts with... Hmm..

Can I pretend that I didn't know that ?



Anyway, I still want to rock my life.
2012, a miserable,lost year for me perhaps.. Or maybe I get to rmb only those sad moments and forgot that I am actually blessed enough.

I rmb I count down at my hostel last year.. That's really a sad starting with all upset and disappointment filling up my heart.
I remember watching fireworks alone and the fireworks are so damn far away .. I saw some lights without any sound..
So that night my roomie slept quite early. And most of my housemates weren't there.. I ran out of my house and went up to the highest floor.. Stand alone asking myself why am I here on this island counting down... So yea, emotional baby.LOL.

So people were yelling counting down and I was standing there alone telling myself , it's a brand new year. Alright got to be tougher I guess.

So during the end of 2012, I swear to god I never want to stay at this bloody place for my new year. So yes, I stayed at hometown. I guess god still love me as I dropped one of my subject which mean my exam is not on 31 dec. LOL! Although I made different choice with other people but I guess I have made the right one.

Throughout 2012, I have changed a lot.
Super different. Those ups and downs.
Thanks for those who bear with me and am sorry to show so much emotional faces and also cold faces.
Am not going to be the same like what I used to be in 2012. * alright , I wish I don't end up saying without actually doing..

To change to be better, I need time :)
Smile more smile more:)

And dear LORD,I wish u heard my prayers..grant me wisdom and strength

I wish I can overcome weakness, sadness, upset and disappointments that filled me up all these times..

I wish I can be stronger:)
I wish I can expect less and give more to people to friends and family:)

Be good and be pure as what I want from the start..

To have smiley faces I guess I need to give my smiley out first. Smile no matter what though Erm it's quite hard for me.

Alright , I will still be cool but I guess that's my nature as I not cute and friendly type:) anyway, just be good and I know myself what should and what shouldn't.


Fill me with love, dear god :)

No matter what decision I make in the end, I hope I will not regret, nope it's a must to be no regrets..

Last, 2013, I gonna make a decision that might or might not change my entire life.


Cheers!! And rocks!
*finger crossed*

1230.2

生日快乐，我对自己说。

：）二十一岁。
我想好像少了些什么。究竟我在寻觅着些什么？
呵呵，看来还蛮多人叫我要快乐。
是的。快乐。

今天，发生的事，虽然不是在自己身上但还蛮受影响。再加上无奈。

无奈是最近的口头褝吧！有时候真的无奈透底。有时怪自己，干嘛那么坦白，干嘛那么成实？

把一切埋藏起来自己解决嘛！干嘛倾诉？乖乖做听众，然后自己的问题自己解决。

明白这两个字不必期望，自己懂就得了。解释屁。哈哈。

好了，唠叨完毕。：）




Alright am lazy to type Chinese.. Okay
2013, there are two things I gonna do for my new year. I mean coming new year..
Have no excuse to evade problems I am facing and I gonna think it right and do it right. God bless me please!!!

Grant me wisdom and strength.

Once chosen will never regret :)
Please be more happy
And please hide every emoness, sadness, upset and disappointment! Please reduce negative thinkings and smile more.

I can make myself happy :) because I am blessed.. Muahaha..
Alright getting myself crazy and silly will keep me cheerful..

Rawr!!!! What doesn't kill me make me stronger!!!

No more weak moments and no more needing people to comfort.

Well, heal in one second, I mean one minute la, and yea, make people smile b my lame jokes plus crazy siao actions and not people make me smile;)


Yea, siao po wannabe . Sot.

1230. 1

Turning 21 at last.
Though I don't feel like I am already a young adult.

1230 is always a special date for me :)
The end of the year but not very end yet.

This year, I guess my wish list will be slightly different.. :)
Anyway, gonna be more mature perhaps?
Walk the path I need to or I want to.

Reminiscing again?

I guess I am way too boyish xD

It's hard to be like a soft type girl lol

I am really blessed:)
Thanks for reminding me to appreciate what I have :)

Hey friends u guys are awesome and I do thanks god to let me have u guys in my life!!

Appreciation that couldn't be tell in words.. I hope u guys know how grateful and thankful I feel:)

Music

I wish to walk a different path

Exams? I really wish to study for knowledge.

Forcing myself to memorize doesn't help me to remember all these precious knowledge for life

I guess I am back to the old me, evading.
AGain..
That's not good and that's not right.


Sigh.. How to make my environment better so that I won't need to leave.

Lost. Again.

Long way to be unbreakable...

Sigh.

至少进步了一点，比起上个星期
克制，微笑，平静。

要添加祷告，添加着想，和感恩

:) Sunday morning

I love music and..

Smiley faces :D

谈。

四至五个小时的分享
聆听别人的故事还真能领悟一些事
也许是自己把自己锁住了吧。
思想非常守旧

还要更努力地，让自己提升：）
变更好才是目标吧！
笑一个吧！今天快乐又多一些了

克己复礼。
牢牢记住。

Happy basically:)
Although there's still disappointments happened but, yea, forget about it :)

Don't don't don't thought it will be like last time:)
Just accept anything and cheers :D

第一次

终于观赏了'第一次" 这部电影。
刚开始真的以为它只是普通的爱情电影但没想到故事情节还蛮多转折的。
他们两个人的爱情有的是感动，女主角的妈妈有的是一颗很爱很爱女儿的心。
为了让自己的女儿快乐，什么事情都愿意去做。
真的，只要能让自己疼爱的人开心，什么牺牲都是值得的。

他们的爱情很纯，其实里头有很多欺骗的成分。
但，女主角明白是妈妈的苦心。她包容，谅解。

有那么一刻， 我不明白女主角的爱，既然知道自己喜欢的人已不再人世，而眼前的男人一直在演戏，又何能真的爱上他呢？
也许感情，感觉就是这样吧。爱上了就是爱上了。
像姐姐说的，感觉很重要，当那个人出现，真的可以感觉到就是他。
虽然我不是很明白。哈哈。
但我很喜欢他们互相为彼此付出，很乐意的，很努力的， 只为了让对方快乐。
就那么简单。

不计较，这三个字，说得容易， 做的难。
人类 天生是自私的，大家付出时都会问自己，我为了什么这么做，为什么要为了某某某如此。
所以啊， 要很努力的不让自己为了利益才行动，付出。
只要问心无愧， 何必那么在意别人的想法。

要加油多一些微笑 。我比好多小孩幸福呢。
有人说， 有了感恩和自足， 自然能不和别人比较，默默地珍惜着一切。

最近很爱有事无事的对别人说加油，可能受到某人的影响。你自己知道吧，无时无刻不嫌烦的和我说加油的那个人， 嘿，加油。

Still the same.

Saturday morning.

Doubt and hesitate

Anyway must gayao:)

Seriously, I have been trying hard.

Just doesn't help anyway..