1.1

New year rocks and everything starts from Zero!
But...Alright, why now.
New year starts with... Hmm..

Can I pretend that I didn't know that ?



Anyway, I still want to rock my life.
2012, a miserable,lost year for me perhaps.. Or maybe I get to rmb only those sad moments and forgot that I am actually blessed enough.

I rmb I count down at my hostel last year.. That's really a sad starting with all upset and disappointment filling up my heart.
I remember watching fireworks alone and the fireworks are so damn far away .. I saw some lights without any sound..
So that night my roomie slept quite early. And most of my housemates weren't there.. I ran out of my house and went up to the highest floor.. Stand alone asking myself why am I here on this island counting down... So yea, emotional baby.LOL.

So people were yelling counting down and I was standing there alone telling myself , it's a brand new year. Alright got to be tougher I guess.

So during the end of 2012, I swear to god I never want to stay at this bloody place for my new year. So yes, I stayed at hometown. I guess god still love me as I dropped one of my subject which mean my exam is not on 31 dec. LOL! Although I made different choice with other people but I guess I have made the right one.

Throughout 2012, I have changed a lot.
Super different. Those ups and downs.
Thanks for those who bear with me and am sorry to show so much emotional faces and also cold faces.
Am not going to be the same like what I used to be in 2012. * alright , I wish I don't end up saying without actually doing..

To change to be better, I need time :)
Smile more smile more:)

And dear LORD,I wish u heard my prayers..grant me wisdom and strength

I wish I can overcome weakness, sadness, upset and disappointments that filled me up all these times..

I wish I can be stronger:)
I wish I can expect less and give more to people to friends and family:)

Be good and be pure as what I want from the start..

To have smiley faces I guess I need to give my smiley out first. Smile no matter what though Erm it's quite hard for me.

Alright , I will still be cool but I guess that's my nature as I not cute and friendly type:) anyway, just be good and I know myself what should and what shouldn't.


Fill me with love, dear god :)

No matter what decision I make in the end, I hope I will not regret, nope it's a must to be no regrets..

Last, 2013, I gonna make a decision that might or might not change my entire life.


Cheers!! And rocks!
*finger crossed*

1230.2

生日快乐，我对自己说。

：）二十一岁。
我想好像少了些什么。究竟我在寻觅着些什么？
呵呵，看来还蛮多人叫我要快乐。
是的。快乐。

今天，发生的事，虽然不是在自己身上但还蛮受影响。再加上无奈。

无奈是最近的口头褝吧！有时候真的无奈透底。有时怪自己，干嘛那么坦白，干嘛那么成实？

把一切埋藏起来自己解决嘛！干嘛倾诉？乖乖做听众，然后自己的问题自己解决。

明白这两个字不必期望，自己懂就得了。解释屁。哈哈。

好了，唠叨完毕。：）




Alright am lazy to type Chinese.. Okay
2013, there are two things I gonna do for my new year. I mean coming new year..
Have no excuse to evade problems I am facing and I gonna think it right and do it right. God bless me please!!!

Grant me wisdom and strength.

Once chosen will never regret :)
Please be more happy
And please hide every emoness, sadness, upset and disappointment! Please reduce negative thinkings and smile more.

I can make myself happy :) because I am blessed.. Muahaha..
Alright getting myself crazy and silly will keep me cheerful..

Rawr!!!! What doesn't kill me make me stronger!!!

No more weak moments and no more needing people to comfort.

Well, heal in one second, I mean one minute la, and yea, make people smile b my lame jokes plus crazy siao actions and not people make me smile;)


Yea, siao po wannabe . Sot.

1230. 1

Turning 21 at last.
Though I don't feel like I am already a young adult.

1230 is always a special date for me :)
The end of the year but not very end yet.

This year, I guess my wish list will be slightly different.. :)
Anyway, gonna be more mature perhaps?
Walk the path I need to or I want to.

Reminiscing again?

I guess I am way too boyish xD

It's hard to be like a soft type girl lol

I am really blessed:)
Thanks for reminding me to appreciate what I have :)

Hey friends u guys are awesome and I do thanks god to let me have u guys in my life!!

Appreciation that couldn't be tell in words.. I hope u guys know how grateful and thankful I feel:)

Music

I wish to walk a different path

Exams? I really wish to study for knowledge.

Forcing myself to memorize doesn't help me to remember all these precious knowledge for life

I guess I am back to the old me, evading.
AGain..
That's not good and that's not right.


Sigh.. How to make my environment better so that I won't need to leave.

Lost. Again.

Long way to be unbreakable...

Sigh.

至少进步了一点，比起上个星期
克制，微笑，平静。

要添加祷告，添加着想，和感恩

:) Sunday morning

I love music and..

Smiley faces :D

谈。

四至五个小时的分享
聆听别人的故事还真能领悟一些事
也许是自己把自己锁住了吧。
思想非常守旧

还要更努力地，让自己提升：）
变更好才是目标吧！
笑一个吧！今天快乐又多一些了

克己复礼。
牢牢记住。

Happy basically:)
Although there's still disappointments happened but, yea, forget about it :)

Don't don't don't thought it will be like last time:)
Just accept anything and cheers :D

第一次

终于观赏了'第一次" 这部电影。
刚开始真的以为它只是普通的爱情电影但没想到故事情节还蛮多转折的。
他们两个人的爱情有的是感动，女主角的妈妈有的是一颗很爱很爱女儿的心。
为了让自己的女儿快乐，什么事情都愿意去做。
真的，只要能让自己疼爱的人开心，什么牺牲都是值得的。

他们的爱情很纯，其实里头有很多欺骗的成分。
但，女主角明白是妈妈的苦心。她包容，谅解。

有那么一刻， 我不明白女主角的爱，既然知道自己喜欢的人已不再人世，而眼前的男人一直在演戏，又何能真的爱上他呢？
也许感情，感觉就是这样吧。爱上了就是爱上了。
像姐姐说的，感觉很重要，当那个人出现，真的可以感觉到就是他。
虽然我不是很明白。哈哈。
但我很喜欢他们互相为彼此付出，很乐意的，很努力的， 只为了让对方快乐。
就那么简单。

不计较，这三个字，说得容易， 做的难。
人类 天生是自私的，大家付出时都会问自己，我为了什么这么做，为什么要为了某某某如此。
所以啊， 要很努力的不让自己为了利益才行动，付出。
只要问心无愧， 何必那么在意别人的想法。

要加油多一些微笑 。我比好多小孩幸福呢。
有人说， 有了感恩和自足， 自然能不和别人比较，默默地珍惜着一切。

最近很爱有事无事的对别人说加油，可能受到某人的影响。你自己知道吧，无时无刻不嫌烦的和我说加油的那个人， 嘿，加油。

Still the same.

Saturday morning.

Doubt and hesitate

Anyway must gayao:)

Seriously, I have been trying hard.

Just doesn't help anyway..

日久见人心

是一个下雨的晚上。

很舒服。所以，想动文笔了。

其实真的不必要流言蜚语，然后互相伤害，还笑里藏刀。

很无聊。坦诚相对，多好。何必狗眼看人低。

睁开双眼， 突然有陌生的画面出现。

为何会在这里？

一切都变得不重要。然后开始忽视。

真糟糕， 又飘浮不定。

一旦定义为无聊，就想张开翅膀飞离。

也许真的慢慢有自己的型格了。

慢慢的在某个场景，某个时间，某个声音里陶醉。

我知道有一个世界是属于我的。

它不定时地出现。

错。

不 这个阶段的我没有为爱情烦恼。
我很想说我不需要爱情，至少现在不需要

不 我根本不想触碰爱情。

他们没有错。冷酷无情。的确如此
我，只想过我想要的生活。

所以，没有暧昧没有爱没有好感没有心跳
单纯的友谊。在乎是因为只要你是真心的朋友只要你是真诚的我就在乎。

所以，一个人真的很好。
宁缺无滥

Wish to sit in the cinema and watch an awesome and inspiring movie alone
at this moment.

.

Being sensitive isn't a good thing seriously.

I wish I can twist the brain so that people would see things in angle of mine then they would understand maybe?

Or I twist mine to view things from their angle...

What I want is just damn simple and why make it complicated?

All I want is a simple happy life.
Or smiley faces perhaps

Why is it so hard

Grey

What's the reason to hold onto this place
I could hardly squeeze one
How to change my attitude so that I can have my smile back?

Stop telling me everything will be alright
No, nothing's gonna be alright
I wish I can hypnotize myself
Again.

Am I going to repeat over and over again everyday? Lol

Fighting hard ..

It's night again.

Have to go through the weak side again.

Why every night?




Thanks. There's a lot of question marks inside my head.
Answers?

我。

星期六 夜晚
是的 我不擅长交际
很努力地笑却只会让不熟悉我的人认为我冷冰冰的
我没有要改变他们的看法
只是在尝试不让自己的围墙筑地太高。
是的 主动这件事我怎么学也学不会
主动交谈 主动关心 主动问候
与我聊天总会有冷场，话题被打主的时候。
总是好难好难能有感性 。总是好难明白到底什么是友情，亲情之外的爱。
怎么样会有好感，为什么要喜欢地死去活来。
也许前世我应该是一棵树。

夜深了，我看见的文字让我感叹。
再次问为什么。

最让人害怕的，始终是人心。
所以好奇心不太重是好事。
不需要知道太多，只要做好自己的本份。
评论本来就不需要多听
要听的仍是总告
还是要不断提醒自己，闲话能免则免。

Home

I am back I am back :)
Although those uncles said huh u back again a? But nope for me, is like a decade I didn't come back already .
So who cares? XD

So yea, Everytime I look at my parents, I feel motivated. I want to have the ability to give them best things to take care of them. They are my direction.
I wish to not only satisfy them by material but also care and love.
I hope they can enjoy life to the Max.
And yea, that's what I want. To see their happy smiling face.

Every problems that I have disappear whenever I came back to this palace.
It's like everything outside there is none of my business. Only here is my kingdom my world.
Ok, I know I still have to work still have to study. There things I need to do after all.

But argh, I am just so so so relax lying on my big bed:D

Home is really super important. This, is belong to me. My very own heaven. Where I can do whatever that I want:) yes, I am blessed.

学会了另一件事。
爱里面容不下怀疑。
学习相信是个难题
但至少能放开怀抱，接受任何一切。
人与人之间的奇妙。
多看看美好的部份，再怎么坏的人还是会有他的好。
要相信人类的美好。


P/s: 喉咙超痛。我的天哪：（

Some times I just wonder.

What are words?

I guess there's just something that I wouldn't believe anymore after I found out myself again and again.

Sigh? No. That's nature of human.
After all, expectations are often comes along with disappointment.

How could I wish the same thing wouldn't happens again? And now I totally understand words are meaningless. Just do not trust 100% on what people said. Even they tell u by looking into ur eyes.its just different from the reality.

There's no one to blame. As from strangers u know each other and get close, till one day, u will back to the original point.

Of coz numb is impossible but for Everytime, all these make u wake up .
And u know, some people do fade away in ur life. U just need to learn how to get use to it.

People tend to talk and not listen. This is the truth.so don't blame for finding no one to listen. Just keep inside and listen to the others. They need ears :)

Gayao. Continue the listener life of mine. Yes, I will be a good listener. I don't need u to listen back to me as a return. I don't need anyone to do that purposely.

The one who wants to know just because of care will appears one day. Just one will be more than enough.

Hmm. From another angle perhaps?

一直充当心情垃圾桶这一角色
我在想如果有一天失去了垃圾桶的功能，对他们而言我还会是什么？

Another morning :)

Thanks god, I know am proceeding slowly. One step at a time. :)

Wake up, and yea, nobody belongs to no one :)

Hey home, I am coming back soon ❤

深夜。
全屋子的人都睡了，剩下我。
文字，一直都有股说不出的力量。

每一天，我都重复在想路，该怎么走？
我，真的很感谢挺我的人。
就算是普通的微笑，我也很感激，
但渐渐害怕说感动的话
总觉得别人会以为是虚情假意，也未免太容易感动了吧。
人，真的很复杂。
想单纯，就只好安静地呆着、不要有任何的评论。努力做好自己吧！

Coughed. Non stop.

Actually there's nth much to say.
Who's right and wrong.
The disappointment the blaming.
All these.. Let it be..

Thinkings? Thoughts ? Feelings?
Yea, let it be.
Have no strength to argue to defend and to correct
Just.. Let it be.. Nvm.
Let everything goes in the way they want.

Interaction? Communication?
If u feel hard to talk to me or u feel I am respondless , just ignore me then.
I am not a socialize person. Just whatever. I don't care.

Changes don't work for most of the time. Am tired.relax and let it be perhaps?

All those words. All those judges.
Whatever.

Gave. Up.

I know I have to go through
This period.

Lost. I still trying hard to find the way out.
I don't need understandings from anyone.
I don't need anything
I just need to walk the right path by myself.

Alone doesn't sound scary to me.
But lost? Yea, without direction is terrible.

怎么办

这个阶段的我，不断问怎么办？
怎么办？有些东西，我一直寻找但找不到。有些事我不断想，但没有头绪。
怎么办？慢慢消失的彩虹
怎么办？渐渐变质的微笑
怎么办？雾好大。。。

其实如果属于你的，到最后还是会回到你跟前。
何必紧握不放，耿耿于怀为什么变了样为什么与当初不一样。
逼着自己配合别人，到最后改变的连自己也不认识自己了，那又何必？
把别人的思想加在自己身上然后别人说变就变，自己又再折腾一番，又何苦？

疯疯癫癫，潇潇洒洒，多好

I can't think of one single reason to continue staying in this place. So should I? Make such a big step?

Complains are all over here
Everything is getting worse when water crisis arise.
One month plus. Msia memang boleh
Management blur and unclear? What the heck excuses is this?
We have been keeping quiet when there's only water provided for few hours. And now, none at all for whole day long.
It's okay when the food is super yucks the transports is not enough
And now? No water?
LOL, I come here to learn not to train myself to become a survivor . Zzz
And I did pay money for everything okay? Even though the fees is cheaper compare to private Uni but how can u treat us like this. Zzzz
Seriously, this Uni is super useless.
Totally not recommended to anyone who wants to have a great Uni life
Unless u want to be a survivor.

我的。

越来越明白人各有所志。
属于自己的世界就是如此。
尝试混进不同的世界就会让某些事变质。纵使外面的人有多不了解，不明白，但就是坚持，如此舒服的姿态。
其实每个人都有选择，想要什么样的生活什么样的精彩。
又何必太在意旁人的眼光，又何必证明些什么。
能随心所欲就已足够。



最初最初的梦想，还真的差一点忘了。可以做的，又何止这些？
天大地大，又岂无我容身之处？

Qi Shi you zhen yang.

每次都忘了，真笨。

对不起，我真的不是个细心的人。
忘了想更深层的东西。
真的有够糊涂。。。

鱼 之所以喜欢呆在大海是因为海的疗阔，海的归属感。



如果世界末日，你会怎样？
真的没有想过这个问题。

没有什么过不去，只是再也回不去。
没有什么人，什么事是过不去的，一直想回去，其实只是跟自己过不去

驼鸟。刺猬

Wo hen Xiang shuo xie xie

Xie xie , wo hen gan en

DUI Mei Yi ge ren 🙏

真笨
宁可鸡粪花也不要牵牛花！

醒醒！

快逃离！

可笑。

就知道该坚持沉默。

根本没有想明白的永远不会体会。

还在期望些什么。

真可笑。

有人很努力地让我笑但也有人很不经意地让我痛。
是你太复杂还是我太简单？

Mei guan xi

I hope I am not being fooled. :)
Anyway refused to think the story behind because I rather know nothing about the weird or unmatched side of people's thinking with action.

:) sighed, forget about it.

。

风很凉，夜很美。

这世界很好，只要心装得下。

其实撑开双手，就能拥有一切。

今天，心情好，
未来的每一天，笑会更多 。
：）

欢迎，原来的自己：）

鸟，属于天空，不是笼子。

那张笑脸，那种心情，那个感觉，依然熟悉。

离开了很远，忘记了很多，如今不再。


终于，终于，属于我的，回来了。
：）笑，从心出发。

终于。回来。

回到我的国度里，
你不明白的，不需要明白。
我有自己的骄傲，也有自己的精彩。
请放心，花朵的凋谢不一定只有一个原因。花朵的绽放也不一定每个人都看得见。

要知道，蓝天不会因为没有太阳而不存在。星星也不会因为没有夜晚的黑而不闪烁。

你看见的不见得就是事实。

依然会微笑，因为紫梦飘扬。
今晚，月亮忘记了：）

若要心变宽，就要学习放下。
放下最难的达到的是，不在乎，不计较。可以很轻松潇洒的忍让。

Cold violence

Read an article about cold violence
It's about people who actually doesn't like his or her partner that much yet he or she didn't wanna break up v partner. so the partner is in struggles in pain in sadness.
I hate ! If u dot love her anymore please said it out, don't think that u are being kind because abandoning a person is cruel.
U are cold to her yet u still don't want to let her go. What's the point.
Be brave and responsible to tell someone that ur heart isn't v her anymore
Don't drag people please. That's hurt.
Super hurt when u text somebody and that person doesn't reply like how he used to reply. When u are so excited to meet him and he is so calm because he don't have the desperate feelings to meet up with u.
Just admit u changed ur heart and not dragging over there.
Don't keep persuading urself that everything will be okay. Everything are not going to be okay.

So, be responsible and don't think that not leaving someone that u dont love that much is kind. U are cruel.

If is me, I rather tell clearly all feelings inside me. Words may hurt but honesty doesn't.
Hiding ur feelings and making people thought that u love them so much is worst of all.
LOL. There's a different between kind and love. If u think that forcing urself or pretending loving someone very much is kind then u are wrong.u are just being cruel and selfish.

Smile :)

Be good no matter what
当感觉真心，诚意被践踏时，还要坚持对人好真的很难。
加油，虽然暂时还会害怕一些言语与表情，但只要问心无愧，就好。
不要随波逐流，要有自己的想法。
减少言语，别口不择言，沉默，沉默：）

Pt ended. Great, left behind everything ;)
Forgot everything muahaha .


I wish I wish god heard my prays
I wish I could get  what I wish for
That's the only chance maybe? To have a change
I hope so.  Finger crossed :/


Pain like hell. Gosh! Why have to suffer like this Everytime
Seriously pain like hell.

If u are not helping please at least don' make the situation worst

Super not in the mood
LOL sorry if I being fierce a bit
Feel like going to sick soon
Haha didn't wanna take in food
Zzz zombie :)

Thousand :(
Who do I have..

Legs pain like hell. Lol
Muscle cramp. So weak my stamina. Zzz

But those things are more fan
Argh, why the stupid pc fair gam gea...

Lol someone is so free. I tot shouldn't be.
Anyway I dont want to ask why
Just sigh when I saw that.

Ran whole kl today
And we won the first prize
Happy me!
Ran like being chased behind
Haha tired but because of determination I didn't let myself to stop
Keep going and keep going
Thanks to team mates! Cooperate well with each other
Have fun have laughters and yes I have a super fun and tiring day.
Nth is impossible, ya, I can do it if I want to.
So tell myself that I can! Not hesitating to do things that I want
Woohoo ~
Great things ahead!
Thanks those who trust me without any hesitation. Their trust on me are so important to build up my confident:)

Say no words.

不多说，有些倔强是无法改变的。
唯有忘记，唯有忽略。

Swallowing
Breathing fast to keep everything inside
It's hard. So hard.

Truly and deeply

Liv

Being scolded because ppl don't rmb.
That's sad.
Anyway take a deep breath, and ya it's okay.
All these do make me tougher and stronger.

Again.
Have no words.


Smiley?

Liv

Still dream of being approved
Hmm was nervous bout that
If if if I am that lucky what will happens next?
Will people here forgot bout me after such a long time?
Anyway I wish I wish my dreams come true, finger crossed

Liv

Different views and thinkings perhaps?
Keep quiet again.
:) anyway I accept other different kind of thoughts just I still have my own thinkings and I guess no one got the right to say ppl's ideas are right or wrong.
Just difference. :) who
Will accept completely my own thinking ? I wondered.

Shine

I wanna go home too!!
Thought to have a free Saturday but.. Ehem there's job awaiting
Dreaming of next Saturday. Start from next week onwards I freeeee~
I guess so.. Haha
And my plan can be started soon :D
Wohoo~ tasted busy life and late sleep
So thanks god:) He heard me :D
Shine:)

Woke up by phone calls. Things aren't being settle yet.
Complications still here due to happened last night
I have no words.
To comfort or to hide and pretend I don't know anything
I guess I still with put on the
Smiley face and be clown.
Hope people will be happy again.
Why human have so much inner feelings
Anyway I willing to do things
In exchange for
Their smiles.
After all I should have keep quiet.
Not to tell them my feelings. Aiks should know that feelings after one incident should be kept if not the outcome will be like this. Influenced people emotions and made them feel that way too.. Zzz. Learnt a lesson perhaps? Keep quiet lol

Squeeze my time to do my own things
Wish me dreams come true

Be positive?
I guess I have tried very very hard
But. Haih
To tell who?
I guess I have to swallow instead of telling
Anyway who cares?
LOL maybe that's what make me strong

Argh~ tired yet lots of things are still waiting for me.zzzz

I miss home
I miss talking complaining blaming to mummy and she will said try ur best will do
I miss when I talked so long like an old lady she still listened so patiently
And keep ask me then how is it what happened next
Made me feel I am so important for her
I miss going to daddy and he will hug me no matter what
I just miss when I have listener who really willing to listen to me...
I found no listener because everyone likes to tell their own things but they don't care what happened on other people.
So I guess I can be a good listener xD
At least I listen, I do know when theres someone who make u feel they really wanna listen to u, u will feel so glad so so glad.
Anyway, no listener so I blog
Make them into words perhaps.
Lol.
Okay done with my craps
Back to works :)

No looking down on ppl please
Even one percent of don't trust ppl's ability or hesitate, I will leave.
Even one percent.
Don't lower my confidence again i have not much left.

Lol exploded finally
Guess only roomie und my feelings
Anyway blaming is over so leave everything behind
I don't want rumors gossips or anything
I want peace
Whatever it is I still do my very best
Long sigh ...... What can I do .

Haih tried so hard

Another late night.
I hope I did help things to run smooth
I don't hope to be labelled as useless.
Everything is such a rush and many things I still blur of
I hope I can come out v something good.
And always feel thankful no matter what
Always rmb that nobody has the responsibility to help u , must thank them because they willing to sacrifice their time to help out.
Thanks. Really.
I know I am not the best not those leader who can produce something big and amazing
But I am trying trying to do the very best
No longer feels tired. Unknown feels instead.

It's late night
Wish to blog awhile anyway
Everything comes to me at once
Life is getting busier
I know it's Sth I must go through
Especially relationships
Organizing events and activities need relationships need socializing
And u never know what's that face mean what that tone mean
Lol I don't wanna know though
Just keeping quiet in front of them
I will do my best part
Only said so so much to housemate roommate after all
But I am thinking should I tell them
All my feelings about things I heard and saw
I dislike really dislike ppl talk bad about my friends
They aren't who they think
But I just keep quiet
Am thinking why should people categorize others as active only when they join activities and nerd to those who do their own things freely
I like activities which are not being tied by rules I love creativity but not repeating the same thing over and over again. Too many rules and some rules and useless.

What's the objective having an event.i guess everyone forgot about the objective they did it because it need to be done. Lol what's for where's the meaning. I am not joining myself if I am not organizer.
Why must we being tied inside a square box
Anyway was keeping quiet
I love peace more I love simple more
I choose what I like
Don't judge when u don't know anything
U never know I can do Sth big too
I will. Create things I like!
Gayao! Gonna finish my job as good as I can.
Then i want to keep busy in another way
:) smile! And forgot.

I want to fly to another land
Air ticket why are u so expensive
Zzzz

I did pray for people I have promised.
May everything goes smooth as what you wish for.

Fear

Another stage of fear I had. Form six I am scared of mask. Scared of so many rumors gossips
And here, I am afraid because I have no idea who are talking from bottom of their hearts except for few.
Scare of people who smile but act differently from behind.
Too many . I don't wish to know. Don't wish to react. I just wish to be simple .
That's all. I don't treat u good because I can get benefit from u. I don't want to fake a smile..


Anyway life has many ways of testing a people's will either by having nth happen at all or by having everything happen all at once.
So things happen all at once to me.
Rush here and there to settle things.
Have no time for emotions.
Until now, sat down and ya, things aren't smooth. Relationships, friendship, those gossips those rumors faces everything.
Lol. I und why some ppl are born to travel all around the world. I hope to be like that too. Free of
Everything .do things that I like but not being tied by managements systems and rules.

The fear inside I will hide as good as I can. Hmm keep my mouth shut except for saying necessary things.
Unless I won't say a word.
Lol.

Deep breath.
Hold on and stand firm
Go through!

:)

Starting v a busy life? Hmm I am not sure about that. I have many activities on hand, College activities pop out somemore and again suddenly being called out to be a director.
Ya I will try my best to do every part of mine but sometimes things aren't going that smooth. And ya my weakness, showed up again.
Trying to cope between activities and academic. I don't wish to be just nutritionist. I wish to be Sth else. More than that. Thinking big huh?
LOL. I asking myself why aren't I trying to accept and take every chance being a leader when I wanna think big for my future.I guess I am not confident enough have no faith in myself
:/ hmm..
I am so lucky actually when they heard I am the director immediately they said they will be my ajks to help me. Thanks :) really it means a lot.
Thanks u guys for being supportive and helpful
Anyway gonna gayao
Too many exams and activities happening continuously . Non stop
I love being busy very busy
God heard me:) thanks lord.
Finger crossed!

Dare not ....

Swollen.
Try harder perhaps.

The struggles

The relationship between human

There's a link between humans
No one is an isolated body, we linked to each other
But why there's people who can't accept the others..
The boycott the teases and the blames.
Misunderstandings perhaps?
I hope I can help
Even that particular ppl did something wrong, she or he doesn't deserve to be boycott I guess
Try to imagine if that's u who being boycott.. That kind of sadness..
That's hurts a lot
I don't know what's happening the stories behind but I did know your sadness and helpless
I do support u even if u have fault also
Haih , I just feel terrible
If I imagine myself as the one being boycott and nobody there to talk. Nobody cares and everyone ignore because that's none of their business
I don't want to interfere things happened in between but I do wish that I can support or help.
:/ being boycott is terrible. Please for god sake, don't let people have that kind of feeling.
U can ignore when u dislike but.. Maybe u can forgive and forget..
I don't know. Just be good .

Lol.
Who cares?

Never mind.

Lol.
Who cares?

So be as numb as possible
That's good.
Whoever said It's not good to be like wood u are wrong
Feelingless is good to avoid any kind of disappointments.
LOL.

ready.... and go!

Need some faith some determinations to be good and kind to people who dont seems like appreciating.

=D make dreams come true, yes going to make things real instead of just thinking.

GAHHH , gayao!

First year

Giving support to a friend who went for study.
Her first year in Uni.
Make me think back how have I gone through my first year.
LOL. I am second year now. Zzz why so fast.
Didn't get too nervous or home sick when I first get into Uni.
Maybe I know I can go home so easy if I want to. But then the Uni life is not what I have dreamt of.
Something different.
So mostly I remembered I blamed a lot.
I blamed the food the transport the activities the lectures the system the wifi.
Gosh I am such a bad girl LOL
So except for the hostel I dislike other things in the Uni.i tried to find joys over there but I just can't get myself enjoy in the activities. I don't like those activities seriously.
So I became the one who have so much hatred inside me.
I found a place where I can calm myself where I can comfort myself.
And Everytime I wish to be alone I went there. To see the mother nature to think how lucky am I having chance to get into Uni. Not using parents money and have such a great environment to learn independent and to build a better attitude.
That's my secret place lol where there are less passer by
But somehow there's still people passed by and looked at me this weird girl. LOL.
Anyway. I gone through the first year. There's still memories for me. Good one. I miss that. I met good people had good times v them. There's still moments that I like :)
I met awesome people who I talked a lot with who gave me chance to know them more. I met people who tried to cheer me and made me smile. I met people who sent me food and notes to brighten up my days. I met people who accept my craziness who tolerate when I yell and sing and dance like a Sakai. I met people who tease me and I tease them back but we still messing around with each other. I met people who are forever kind to lend helping hands but doesnt ask for help when she is in hard time :/ I met people who are so cheerful that always smile and laugh. I met people who are so quiet but she had her own dream. I met all kinds of people and all of them are kind. So kind. :)
And oh ya, I met seniors who are super good to me. They gave me chances to be a leader to learn things and to make things great. They have me encouragement and confidence that I lack of all these time.
So why should I blame?
After that one whole year, I did learnt things that I never know. I did regret once why I didn't try harder to appeal for Singapore Uni ?
But then I know this belongs to me.
I should trust path that I have chosen
I should enjoy rather than hating
Should appreciate rather than blame
:) so girl, appreciate, there's a reason why u are at where you are :)
Shine and fly high !

No I don't trust anyone except my family.
And ya I don't believe in love. I am extremist lol

要对一个人好很容易，但要对一个人永远好就很难了。

聆听成人们的对话。

是另一种想法，另一个世界。

也许毫不在乎是因为心中另有自己想要的。

不是这些，也许一直留白的一直坚持不上色的是因为明白一但开始将失去简单。

也许坚持保留自由，因为不想拥有牵挂。

也许口中的潇洒是因为根本不明白里头的一切。

或是不懂得该怎么表达。

毕竟每个人的思绪不一样，想传达的信息也许通过文字会变成另一种负担。

其实很简单，我想要所有人开心。

但偏偏这，好难。

所以我好喜欢小孩，他们就是可以没有理由的大笑。

就是可以没有烦恼的倒头就睡。

所以我好爱接近小孩，像他们一样， 傻笑，乱蹦乱跳。

幼稚地作弄别人，无厘头地自言自语。

什么也不晓得，笨笨的多好。

但，长大后，有些事必须明白，必须处理。

然后面对，解决。有些话必须说必须理解。

微笑，对吗？

至少身边围绕的朋友都很好。

谢谢，让我遇见这么多很棒的人。

Damage have been done and sorry is nothing.

Super crap

So I came back from a dinner.
The dinner starts from seven and ended at eleven Sth. What a long night.
So we chatted. About horoscope.
I love to see how my friend laughed when I did silly act.
And so one of them talked about their love story.
And one of them keep asking me why no bf
And then the end.
I guess if I posted this long stupid things on Fb my parents will ask Zou mea wor lei?
No la not the end.
I am still awake crapping a long long post. So that I am shuang enough hearing the tapping sound of my key board. So yea I am that wu Liao.
And I gonna continue my words until I super duper shuang .
So ya friend asked why no ppl chase no bf no love life.
Why? Because no why.
She said u don't look like
Single ppl don't have a single look do they?
And I was tired to hear love stories actually. Just asked shuang
Haha. Heard too many?
But I am kepo to know also
Because what I always love to do is keep on encourage ppl pak tor
Don't dare to confess? Let me encourage har xD
Can't find one? I intro la!
To accept or not accept? Haiyo just be braver la!
And usually all will shoot me back by saying then why u don't want have one?
Haha because forever alone sound better for now?
Because I have nobody to trust?
Okay my fingers are finally tired now.

Starry starry night? Lol

When u found that in the end, u have no one to find or refer to when there's a situation for u.
LOL. Don't imagine I cry or sit alone in a dark lonely corner.
No, I laughed instead.
An author said u have to act like a happy person then it will be real. That's sound pathetic.
I guess he mean that when u are down please be positive and throw away those negative things. Smile and be shinny I guess haha then u will be a happy ppl .

Getting more and more quiet. A good sign maybe?

Crapss

Keep myself busy
That's feel good
Most of the time Things happened aren't what we wished for
So u gotta adapt and go on
Washed three cars in a row today
Woo~that's tiring. Spent three hours or more to wash and wipe and clean.
Have outings but I am a bit lazy
Still thinking whether will I go or not
So much filling my head
Keep thinking keep thinking lol
I wish to start my third semester but then I don't wish to go back
Forever in Mao dun one me=,=
Guess living alone aren't that bad too
Although sometimes will feel the loneliness
Yet I got my own free space to do what I want to do
Blah blah blah
Enough and rest

Still smile

So I tell myself not to be like him.
Dislike but no, not this kind of attitude
So I keep a distance I guess?
But still smile :) gayao
Dislike doesn't mean have to hate
Just reduce face to face contact will do
I like to talk to his brother more
Because he is more real and honest
But of coz he is dislike by many ppl because of his honesty
Anyway I like real faces rather than pretending.
Still smile, remind myself :)

A little

Just to talk a little
Then all goes the same
Just to listen a little
Maybe can change something?
Just to understand a little
And end with a smile on face
Just to tolerate a little
With a sigh with relief maybe?
Just to stand strong a little
Nothing beats you down.

少了些什么。
寻找当中。

Sometimes I wondered
The senses of a girl
Is it that true that accurate?
And yea I guess so
U can feel every single tiny lil detail things that u know for some time
U can feel the changes feel the sincerity u can feel because that's a gift from god .
Sometimes ppl said its negative thinking or they said its over thinking
But I think that's not true
Sometimes it's just can't explain
There's no prove its all about feelings.
When the way ppl used to treat has changed u feel it
Even they deny for infinity times
Anyway crap again haha

I miss pure laughter with just happiness inside
Things that aren't urs u gotta leave it.
I miss myself.

That's what make us different
So, that's it
Smile and be new again
:) stand still and feel who u are not who people want you to be
Carry on and don't let noise matters u

like a wall is good, isnt is?

care no more =)

Gayao! :)
Smile more and be strong!! :D

不是理所当然

一盏路灯为你照亮黑夜，你没有在乎过它的存在，因为一切理所当然。
看了许多天灾人祸，又有多少人能真正体会珍惜拥有。
别人的好，习惯了就成为依赖，以为一切都是应该的。
其实真的并非理所当然。
说声对不起，对不起，我把一切理所当然。
也谢谢，包容我的人。

废话。

假期太闲了，看了几部爱情片。
终究不相信爱情，终究不愿相信什么天长地久，什么永远呵护，爱护着你。
到那一天，一切还不是会变。
也许太空白才不明白一切。
有人问我是不是很渴望爱情？其实我嘴里拼命说是但心里真的没有渴望。
也许吃不到葡萄就说它酸。

也许。 XD

期限

其实每个人都一样。
喜欢一样东西，一个人，一件事，从一开始的苦苦追求然后得到，
再来是习惯后来便厌倦。
新的人，新的事物，总让人慢慢忘了原本拥有的。
有一些人例外，但例外的人现在慢慢消失了，也许还会有几个。
而有些人对新的爱不释手却又死死不肯把旧的放手。他们说他们没有变心，只是心的空间变大了。所以他们理所当然地自欺欺人。


渐渐的，他们会失去，一些事，一些人，一些感觉，一些他们永远都不会再拥有的。
他们或许没有察觉，或许认为一切如常，但已经变了的人变了的心变了的事又怎会那么明明白白的摆在他们眼前呢？


如果你渐渐对某样事，人或物品厌倦了，不再像以前一样热情，请有心理准备，你，必定会失去些什么。如果你说你不在乎，请不要有那么一刻，眷恋你曾经拥有过的。


请明白，任何东西都有它的期限。不管是什么。时间一过，就算紧握，也会来不及了。

Wo Shi xin fu de bao bao :D

Boyfriend

Ya ya ya, heard enough for the question. Have you found your boyfriend yet? No? Uni don't have? No? Coursemates? No? How about seniors?
Okok I know I know. I don't have one for such a long time. I just didn't met one okay?
It's not that easy because I am hard to handle. Hahaha
Its just not the time yet. Single is not big deal, I mean for now. Lol
Boy friend? Not for now. Heard too many stories saw too many break ups and sorrows. Call me coward I don't mind :D
Okay, it will come when it want to.
So don't worry for me :$
Turning into young adult doesn't mean I must be in a relationship.
So, yes, am proud to say I am single ok? That's not a problem anyway. LOL

Just a book

Found the right book and bought it without a second thought.
Learning never ends in life.
To change my thoughts, I need wisdom words. And yea, I found the right book :)


Quote for today; because I am who I am

Once lost, can't find it back anymore.
I realized.

Fly effortlessly

Things happened, big and small.
To train us to be mature, and what kind of person you want to be.
When the same incident falls on people, they react differently.
Personality. Everyone have their own.
I have my own mindset that changes over time. Meeting different people, listening to different stories. These, build up the very own thoughts and characteristics. People might not understand but that's not the point.
What's important is the complexity that you need to handle. Whether will you be the same , following the trend. Or you have ur own way.
Am still searching like a rabbit inside the jungle. I know I might fell for
Few times, might did something wrong, might judge wrongly, might trusted the wrong person. But, that's part of my story. They are colors which fill me up. And I gonna shine after being through all these. With no regret, I shall make my own choice, choose my own path and walk till the end. :) smile, and fly effortlessly ❤

选择了，就要无怨无悔地走下去。

Weakness

Head is like bursting
And the pain in stomach made me weak.
Stand up and feel but dizzy
I feel so weak.
What's wrong with my body :(
Be strong, have to be strong no matter how.

Sigh ... What a long day I have.
Just... Sigh

Expressive?
It's just so hard.
Too much thoughts are being made.

The dog

First time ever I let the dog chase.
He is just too fierce with his sharp teeth.
After witnessed how he bite the old man, I was scared to death when he jumped on me and tried to tear me apart.
Gosh, the fear inside made me screamed out my lungs. Have no choice to ran into people's house.
When I get onto the car finally, my hands were shivering. Yes shivered.
I thought I am a braved who dont scare of anything. But at that moment, I know I am not that strong. Nobody will protect you when u faced danger.
You just gonna learn how to fight back and defend. Ya , and nobody knows the fear inside you. When everything is over and u got no injured, this is not an incident, it's became a story.
And only urself will remember how it feels and those thinkings you have after it happened.
Seriously, things happened too fast.
There are so many unknown.
Those lessons are always the same after every incidents and accidents.
Appreciate. Ya, appreciate.

Thanks mosquito, u make my night worse.

思想

老师说， 现在的小孩收网络影响，思想变得很不一样。
这是很多人没有发现的事实。
以前的人因德，礼而备受尊重。
现在的人因名气，富贵而备受爱戴。
其实品德已慢慢变质。
其实大家都很容易受影响。
什么是潮流，什么是人气。




努力争扎，因为不想失去唯一的单纯。
不愿意随波逐流。
曾羡慕，曾模仿。
但什么才是心中想要。
也许机缘下的谈话，会一言惊醒梦中人。
也许歌词中的意思， 会让人沉思其中。
一旦选择了，就要毫无怨言的走下去。

友。

是真心？
客气的尴尬，礼貌的应酬。
倒不如坦白豪爽？
何苦？
如果不在乎，可以转身离开，何必强逼自己笑容满面？
友情，感情任何情从来都不是单方面的事。
如果你没有的是真心，请别装，在乎的人，有心的人，会晓得。失望，只会日愈增加，放弃，只会越来越强。
不只是爱情，请明白，友情一样需要保温。
请懂得，你不会是别人永远的知己。你不珍惜，还是会有人把友情当宝贝。
请了解，失望是会累积的。
也许你回头时，已经失去。

Shero❤

看不到,找不到　
等不到你的HERO
为何不作自己　
只手撑天的SHERO
你可以,我可以　
为自己赴汤蹈火的SHERO
像女王,挥舞著,骄傲披风

Back to paradise

渐渐有自己清晰的想法。
什么是目标什么是快乐。
家，不是个沉闷的地方。
假期，不一定要到处游玩才叫充实。
想陪着父母。看他们上网，和他们谈天，一起吃饭，享天伦：）
学习更多，不管是知识还是技术，以后就能好好照顾他们了。
是的，赚钱是为了他们，学习也为了他们❤

:D Erm this one isn't for today actually, just failed to post so repost

Ah, just so happy tonight :D
Just a friend's and the going-to-finish exam ! I mma a happy girl :D
All good food , drama , nice place and everything, wait for me!!! I am so excited yet I have to continue study my dehydration thingy !! Have to calm down and stop crazying

Destiny

Oh my god I just can't wait to write down my feeling for today
Finally I know why I am here, feel weird when I made the decision to come all the way here to work.
But now I know it's worth, just some message some inspiration that are given by god :)
I met the manager and I don't know he is a manager.
He talked to me about nutrition and god knows I have just finished my final and I pour out all my knowledge to him
To tell him my opinion based on what I learnt, I feel myself didn't waste time on studying.
Yes nutri affects life a lot and there are so few people who know about it.
After talking to him, he said I am potential and nutrition market is great for future he is keen on this market and he said;" u know what , I should give u my name card and we should keep contact!"
By that time only I know he is mang liu
Haha and those promoter told me that he want recruit me to his company XD
Maybe it's a lil simple talk, but he gave me lots of encouragements
He made me feel that I have made the right choice, he made me feel that I want to work hard in this course.
I really can do big things with my knowledge. I can make a change and for sure I can take good care of my family start from the very basic step, healthy life style.
Suddenly feel that all my blamings and hesitations have gone. I can do more.
I can do a lot.
Theres a spark inside and I just have to ignite and shine!
By the way today is my day, really!
Have so much more happy good things :D

Friends

You know the feelings when old friends contact you as you thought they have already forgotten u.
Appreciate when friend from secondary school gave me a call suddenly.
She still rmb me I mean I still own a place in her heart. I am happy, seriously.
Often we met lots of playmates in our life and when we get older, separated from each other, we lost contact.
But the difference between true friends and playmates is true friends always come back to you no matter what no matter how u change no matter where u are. They contact u, they talk to u, they have u in their hearts.
How many ppl do willing to find you when u never get a chance to talk to them to meet them after a long while?
:) anyway I feel grateful to have friends like that. After all I am a super "bei dong" ppl , lol , and somemore I hardly could squeeze topics to talk. And thanks for bearing v me as for most time I am quiet, I like listen more.

The direction. The light . The sparks .
It's universal . It's Sense of touch.
Once you found, move on.

Jazz

爵士，它是一个人的音乐。
从第一个音符，散慢的音调带入另一个境界。
涌出，沉淀再回味。
闭上眼，旋转。

Academic?

Focus 100 percent in academics?
For secondary school I did so but for Uni? I still have tones of exams that need to go through and my life isn't only about exams.
So shall I shift my 60% or more attention to things I want?
Subjects are getting harder for each sem,maybe it's not hard to understand but time given to memorize all that is too little. There are whole tones of knowledge , figures and facts. Or I shall say theories, names and meanings.
Getting more and more hectic for coming sem.
Argh, finding the balance in between
Gayao a!!!!

Oldies ❤❤

Those old times we used to be together.
Gosh I just miss them so much!!!
Those memories we have can never wipe off, they made deep footprints in my life.
Thanks god, I met bunch of best friends. They are so so so lovely.
:) and thanks god, HE leave bestie in kl for me while whole bunch of my friends are abroad. If not I will dry up here, in this isolated place =,=
Anyway, am excited, real excited when I met old bestie :D
Love the way we chat like nobody cares :)

久违的文字，回来
回不来的却是久违的感觉。


慢慢旋入防空洞，忘了原来的美好
剩下的是寂寞的味道

What about love

The sun goes down and the stars comes out.
Night again.
What makes ppl who loves each other turn into enemy?
And what makes friends to have cold war?
Every different mindset of different people.
I miss those times when I was a lil kid and plays with everyone. Theres only love in kids world. There's only pure existing.
Grown ups should be complex?
I wonder

Crap

12.42am, lying on the bed without any study mood on
still a lot of lesson to learn, about life about human and attitude.
Cool as usual.
Walls are thicker and thicker
Can't do anything with it.
Sensitive as usual or I should call it observant? Lol
Hmm, it's uncontrollable?!!
Have no idea.
It's all inside, ppl told me to give it out, don't keep.
I said okay, I want to but I can't .
It's easy for u but it's so damn hard for me.
Just like u can hardly score in maths u just don't know why. But other ppl can score 100 like kacang putih. Same theory .
Work hard on it. I guess the me the M.E is too hard to be separated. They just stuck together all the time.
So, try even harder, perhaps? Ya I will
Finish crapping and time to sleep

The position

Tried my very best to contribute for yoga class .
Trying to work as a team. I hope my committees willing to put in effort with me :)
Finger crossed.
Will do the best , since I have take it as my responsibility . It's not something big , all it need is scarification and enthusiasm :) hmm.. Strive hard even for the smallest thing .
Jia you!!!

满足不了所有的人。
何时才学会 平静。

Relatives

I love home. I love my family.
And relatives too. They are part of my life.
They aren't very very close with me ,they don't understand a single thing of mine , yet I still love them.
They don't know who am I and they have no idea what's inside me.
Yet I love them for who they are.
There's the bond, which we can't break.
Relatives often used to compete with each other. Some take it as negative some hate it.
But I take it as their entertainment. When their sons and daughters went out for studies, eventually they feel bored. So they talk and that's all.
:) just give them a smiley face, adult too need attentions:)
They need care and love.they too need encouragement from us. They too like praises they too need to be proud for sometimes.
So just let them be :) smile, and love them.

I saw an guardian angel behind every girl.
Have I met mine?

幸福

喜欢这样的风，这样的音乐。
很自在，很平静，很安宁。




舒适的过着这样的生活， 多好。
安静的拥抱家人，朋友，爱的人们，多好。
闭上眼睛，慢慢细嚼快乐的感觉。
这样， 就这样，多好。


微笑吧， 因为我知道我真的很幸福。

People

I felt so so so happy yesterday when I received call from my teacher.
Half of my worries disappear because words of his
Thanks god , I have great seniors who willing to support me great teacher who doesnt hesitate to help me and others great ppl whom I met in my life :)
Wish me luck. I will try my very best.

Actions

Those happenings.
U smile when u think from different angle
I like the word independent
I like when I am able to make decision by my own
No matter it's right or wrong, it's my decision. My own feelings.
You can hate me you can disagree with my opinion
But u can't change me.
I feel grateful for ppl who still stands behind me. U know why I did so u did understand why am I having all of those thinkings.
Anyway that's part of my life
I don't know what comes next but it's alright. Everything make me stronger
I believe.

问题

人长大后要面对的事情会变得越来越多。
你的答案会变成別人的问题。
一个决定一个动作都需要向很多人交待。
成长換来的是独立想法。渐渐地你不再关心如果问题发生在別人身上他们的解决方式是什么渐渐地你明白很多事，没有任何一个人有义务要帮你。有的是感谢。谢谢让你有机会学习独立丶明白自己优缺点的人们，慢慢感恩珍惜向你伸出援手的人们。

问题有很多，以前被我埋藏的，现在涌出来了。是的，终究必须面对必须解决。
像比赛台拳道一样，一旦上场，不管有多害怕有多颤抖都要勇敢地，坚持下去。就算倒下也要在努力过后。
加油了，给自己。
一切的一切靠的是坚持不懈的毅力！

如果一个人没有了灵魂会怎么样？
没有任何感觉？没有喜怒哀乐？

几时 可以回家

对所有事物失去信心是最糟糕的一件事。

Smile, what else?
Never mind for a thousand times.
A smiling mask, so what?
Everything doesn't matter anymore

Nightmares recently.

What's life.
Changes from full of hopes to now
Was disappointed was blaming was complaining
Negative words from everywhere

Tried harder to get into boredom?
Have no idea how to resist normal

Fell and stand up for
Nothing . How many times these gonna repeat?

Ambivalence filling up and what's wrong with all these?
Have fed up and then tell myself to have dreams again.

There's a spark inside but I can't ignite.
Where's my fireworks?

The blaming

My housemate often told me she wish she could have life like others' course mates do. She want something like the other house. She feels bored she doesn't feel the bond in our house and I guess she doesn't like to stay in our house. Her thought is same as me when I first joining this house. But starting from mid sem 1, I started to change my mind. I
Don't feel my housemates bore and quiet. I like them:) when u envy others u will never know how to appreciate what u are holding or having and then when u lose it somedays u will regret why u never even try to
Enjoy the happy moments and u didn't even try to make
Bond with people around u.
Real life often turn out different as what u expected. When u keep thinking and blaming why this and that, u will never get what u want. I don't know what to advise her, but then I am glad that I am able to view things from another angle. My housemates are definitely cute:) and I am glad to have my roommate too:) when u started to appreciate rather than blaming and then ignoring the person u think who are bored who are not from ur world who can't shopping v u who can't share feelings v u, then u are actually stepping backwards, walking away from friends u suppose to have in ur life. Don't blame ppl aren't interesting enough don't blame ppl can't have the same topic v u, its just that u never try to understand them from the start .

Relationship between human isn't Stg tht u should maintain with purpose . Is not about making ur social network wide so that u can be successful one day. That's with purpose, that's not a heart to heart relationship and it's tiring to put on a mask. Friendship and relationship is something that u really work on with ur heart. Friend isn't someone who just play and hang out with u. But is someone that u can talk to in the middle of the night, someone who u won't feel awkward when there's no topic between both of u , someone who u will smile together , someone who accept everything of u and same as u accept everything of her or his , someone who will tease u scold u telling u the truth just for ur own good. Have u found this friend in ur life who u can take off ur mask , smile when u want to cry when u want to angry when u want to
And she won't blame u for all this. Have u met ppl like this?
I had. :) and I am happy .
Boredom doesn't kill me but it make me appreciate more those precious moments between me and my friends.
Different ppl have different lifestyle.
U just need to stop envy others' then u will know how good ur life is for now.
I have a Uni life that is
Different from others, I do blame a lot but if I didn't come here , I guess I will never have happy moments that I had like now :)

Too much

Too much and I can't breath.
You don't hold someone too much too tight.
It is same as the theory when u hold the bird tight it might die.
Human have invisible wings too, they fly they need space and freedom
U can hold a subject an
Object tight but not human
I do need space I do need to breath, don't put too much force on me.
I have my own reason in everything I do and I have my own principles and ways of handling things.
So please don't force someone to think the same as you don't force ppl to respond like what u wish.
Sometimes u do need negotiation u need to think in their shoes.

I am sorry I have to do this..
Some one will appear and she is the one.
There will be someone

The attention

Often human needs attentions
They need to be unique they need to be envied by others
They need light shattered on them

Not shining anymore when they lost their attentions?

Those glories are too tempting ?
Or the greediness have take over?

...
I feel myself as a failure
I didn't complete my responsibility
Instead , I blame . I blame on my leader why she never remember me as her member. I blame I didn't being updated by latest news.
And I forgot that I should nt put the blame on anyone, it's my problems.
I should ask myself why I never ask what can I help instead of waiting for instructions. Why I never bothered to just ask what discussion have they made instead of waiting for people to tell me. Cooperation in a team does not depend on one side it need two ways communications. And yes I have totally failed to be a team member. I have failed in every aspects that I learnt for so many years. I wrote this down I wrote what have I done wrong because I want to remind myself.
This, is the failure in my life.
This is what I shouldn't repeat.
And yes I admit I am not good enough but I will try, I will work hard to do the best for everything no matter it's small or big.

Smile

所以要提醒自己，一定要珍惜。
还有，真心待人。
真心不代表讨好，不是为了要有好人缘，不是为了要让自己得到每个人的喜欢。
真心是为了要珍惜人与人之间的那缘份，珍惜人与人之间那宝贵的感情。
如果付出了真心，得到的是敷衍，伤心难过是难免的，但这不正正在提醒你千万別敷衍他人吗？
加油，还是那句，
不管遇到任何事，都要懂得微笑：）

冷漠

缘分。很奇妙。

人与人之间有某种联系。

是的，人类喜欢的往往不是最诚实的话。

但在一段感情里面，不管是友情，亲情还是爱情，坦诚很重要。

如果接受不了事实，如果要放弃，那离开也许是件好事。

问题说出来以后，想要的不过是一个答案。

如果倾诉只会带来烦恼，那我还是会选择沉默。

=）沉默不代表悲伤，只是很安静的把一切抛开。

在读这篇文章的你，不用担心，我没有烦恼，只是一时感触 。

很奇怪的想法，很奇怪的原则，很奇怪的体贴。

我还是很爱我身边的人。如果你要留在我的生命里，请明白，我的冷漠。

Simple

The reason I am happy today
:my seniors are friendly and someone didn't reject my invitation :D u know who u are. Although there's might not be action exists but I still feel happy:)
Its too simple to have smiley face :)
Jia you be pure and simple always

还是适合沉默。


躲在世界的角落。

一个人不可忴，所以我不需要同情。
我只要真心。感谢上天，至少还有真心的人出现在我生命中。

Make a change

Light has been switched off yet I don't feel like sleeping
Hmm...
Has been thinking a lot
Life that i really want
Active,busy lifestyle?
I have another definition for active..
Everyone thinks that joining a lot lot of activities means that they are active
But not for me, making myself busy for activities I don't like, having boring meetings that are totally didn't mean anything to me and rushing here and there just for things that aren't meaningful ?!!
Hmm.. Guess that's not what I want..
I want something different something meaningful something that can inspired ppl..
Duh talk so much but did nothing here ><
Never mind :) I will , I will make a change :)

Hee

Just finish talking with my family :)
Hen xin fu <3 hehe
And good news for me today :D
Although there's still things that I still don't understand
Although there's things or I would say expressions that I would like to evade
But overall I am still the happy girl <3

My world

Just love staying in my own world
There's only happiness inside
I see no sadness and disappointment
I see nothing hear nothing
There's just peace and that's all I need

随心所欲

下午三点四十六分，

每个人想要的世界都不一样。

如果要配合别人的步伐，委屈求全，到最后会是如何。

长大后，很难像小时候一样，想怎样就怎样。

往往必须考虑许多事情

其实要世界和平，要每个人都开心，很难。

现实往往就是不一样。

一直以为最简单的事常常变得复杂。

我不需要别人来配合，我只喜欢顺其自然。

天空多大就让它多大，何必用框框来限制。

想微笑就大大地微笑，何必理会别人的想法。

想唱歌就大声得唱，何必在意好不好听。

想伤心就伤心， 何必假装坚强。

做自己喜欢的事 ，

我不管了 xP

The reason I smiled

Today is my day!!
Was so so happy when I get to go out with my lovely best friend and ate my favorite pizza plus spaghetti :D
And drank tasty jelly cha time
And I even bought two pairs of shoes that I love so much!!
Ah~girl! XD
Happiness continue when I met humorous lecturer who made the lesson interesting :)
And funny singing sessions with housemates made me laughed a Lot
Smiling faces masked all imperfections
What a lovely day I had
Thanks god !! I got no Monday blue
But a happy lovely awesome first day of my second semester
Thanks my loved one who I appreciate much
Thanks those ppl who smile at me
Thanks for being nice to me
:D yea, I had a great day ❤❤❤

Love Like This

=D

不管是友情，亲情还是爱情都需要两个人来保温。

谢谢努力和我保持联系的人，他们懂得我是个被动的人。

也许你会说，被动不是借口。

但请原谅我，我在努力的改变。

对不起，如果我温暖不了你。

对不起，如果我太过木纳。

对不起， 如果我的反应很冷淡。

我不是故意如此，只是有时有些感受，它们在心中，如果硬要表达，会变得虚假。

谢谢愿意踏前一步了解我的朋友，谢谢你们的耐心，谢谢你们的坚持。 =）

谢谢愿意在我身边守护着。

bored

Still having the long holidays =)

is so so so relax staying in ipoh.

and i am becoming a big fat lazy pig.

all i need to do is sleep, eat , play like a princess <3

i dont really hate k17 actually. but seriously the boredom there does kills me =,=

Second sem is coming ,does it means that i have to work harder than first sem?

because the subjects are quite hectic ,zzz

i wish i could do something different.

i wish i could have more freedom, doing things that i like, going places that i love.

always thinking what life will i have if i choose mass communication in the first place?

haha, blah, stop thinking crap and continue to rock  my life!

Gonna Change from time to time so that i see the different ME <3

xoxo

这世界。

每个人背后都有自己的故事。
长大后，有好多好多的事情需要被顾虑。
小时候那单纯的一切流失了。
有了心机，有了目的，有了自私，一切变得不一样。
我称它为变质。
喜欢傻傻的自己，什么都不知道有多好。
至少还可以每天开心地笑。
我要的不过是快乐，要的不过是和平。




有时就是要一笑而过。
有时就是要逆着心，这样才能让所有人开心。
有时就是要忍耐，别人的不了解=）