27/10. Seriously. I will treat myself a big meal if I survive from all these wars.

I seriously have no idea why am I putting myself in a tough shit that no one ever want to deal with. 

If I able to unlock this achievement.

No, I want to unlock this. No matter thousand infinity times I think of giving up.

This shit really messing up my life.

And no. I will conquere it in my way. 

Gosh, :( 

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我们生在一个半数码的时代。

那一些很美丽的画面，故事，言语，深深侵入后就难以磨灭。

而那一些五颜六色的泡泡又是那么容易的被摧毁。

曾说过要当一个聆听者。但原来，有些话，已经不愿意再听。

你会嘲笑，为什么把羽毛的重量加得那么重。

我会自嘲，因为每一个人都有自己衡量的方法。我的方程式刚好如此可笑。

想要像棉花糖的柔软，像宇宙的颜色，像下雨后空气的味道，像电影里女主角的怦然，像玫瑰的红颜，像天空的旷阔，像游乐园的快乐，像晴天的幸福。这是那彩色大象的形状。

也许我的是独角兽。

可是，人生完美的事太少，我们不能什么都想要。

我希望有一天，我能接下一句。

们。

在最没有预料之下，认识可爱的人们。

今天，谈。
是的，我们说着彼此的历史，故事。
我听见煎熬过后的坚强，看见未来的你会很出色。
现在的寂寞与孤独，只是暂时。相信我，像你那么好的人，一定会遇见属于自己的彩虹 。
可惜，我与你只有那短短的相遇，但也足够在我人生里画下美丽的痕迹。
而你，我看见美丽的翅膀在蠢蠢欲动。别担心，像你这么用心的人，一定会看见曙光。
我对你一直很有信心。因为从第一天开始，你的笑容就充满了阳光。所以你的未来怎么能不发光发热？



我必须承认，我遇见的人们都是无比的可爱。
我曾经说过，能让我留恋的一定是这些美丽的人们。
但，原谅我，梦太美。



我也必须腾清。
我的却看不见远方的彩虹。
能如此坚定，我也对自己有些讶异。
可能是从第一天开始，已经明白未来的未来。



我只想默默的祝福。
一百种祝福的方式在脑海放映。
可，我竟然会恐惧人们给予的反应。
我还是无法如此潇洒。


原谅我，只想把很美好的祝福，默默用心，转送给你们。

祝，
幸福。

也祝，
快乐。这才是最重要的。

Duh

A quick one.

Adult shit is really shit. I do not know how to put that into nice word.
With one glance I saw nothing beautiful inside.


No wonder there's so many fairy tales and fantasy all kind of stuff where people willing to spend so much on. It's because it won't and will never happen in real world.
And adults know pretty well that's shit still they pick it up.


I know being naive equals committing suicide.
Well, there must be some ways out of it. I truly believe in that. Why are you hating it so much yet you still doing that. You might be telling me that's defence or protection against harmful things or people.

And where do all this nasty people come from? I wonder. Isn't that a cycle. People being nasty to you and you being nasty to the next person in touch for some sort of revenge reason or some sort of fair enough reason.


Cant it be changed? I mean does mature have to include all these things?


Guess it's tiring. But you have to know how the world runs, how the shitty adult world goes.
Havent even get into it and I was like "Duh". Seriously, thats what "naive" supposed to be meant in another way round. If i get what i mean.


But whatever. Nothing big.

Its just human after all  and I got nothing to lose.

So yea, I wont give up. I wont give up in doing things right.

I hope I wont be shaped so fast by the society.
Stay hard. And come on, you can die anytime or any second and you can bring nothing with you anyway.