second day staying with host family.
well, my host family isnt a rich family but host mama is trying her very best to give me good things=)
she did sacrificed especially during meals. she didnt eat much so that me and her children can have most of the food. nobody notice it but i saw how she give out her loves silently.

she is a great mother. she never blame but she tried her best to take care of her child.
Guess this is another chance for me to grow. I know i can take care of myself and also the others. being tough and strong enough for everything. God always have His own reasons for things to happen.

reflection., time for reflection =)

Left two weeks in Japan.

Ask me do I feel sad about it. Nope..I don't @.@

Well, my friend is super sad once he think of leaving here. 

Guess it depends on people. I didn't have really strong bond with people here. In fact, I didn't really trying hard to build relationship with people. So is my problem. 

Words sometimes couldn't be trust. U have to know hidden meaning behind. Am not good at expressing myself. But I really like people here. They are just so kind and friendly. And polite. They are so polite. Really love Japanese culture. I think this is why they can be so developed. They are so humble and they always think about people's feelings in the first place. 

Have too many first time in Japan . Lol unforgettable experiences I guess. Somehow am too tired to think. So so busy with activities and never slept well for more than five days. Gosh, am still young for crazy stuff. 

This is probably a trip which enable me to know who am I and what I am able to do.

Well, getting stronger, tougher. And yea, I I am a good follower. Lol, can't help to listen to whatever order. Not a good leader though. Am good at following intruction. As long as u tell me what u want, I guess I will somehow fulfill ur will. Lol. 

Japan is really a nice place. Still I prefer malaysia. Still love malaysia even it is sucks. 

And yes I miss home. 

Living alone is not a problem but feeling lonely is quite a problem. 

Sometimes I wish I am not in a familiar gang. I wish to go strange places and meet with strange people. Stay in a place  where there is people who know nth about me. Lol. But it's Asian culture to be collectivist.

Individualist doesn't work here. Jeff is a good example. I feel sad for him. For me, I don't think he is a bad guy or what. Rather I think that it's his culture and background which made him to be like straight forward without considerating people's feeling. I will talk to him although I don't think he recognize me. Lol to him every Asian is the same. 

Anyway, just feel pity. When everyone like not really willing to even sit beside him. 

:( I willing to be his friend if he willing to mine. Lol

Anyway, nt being crazy over here. Could hardly though. Getting more and more serious plus mature. Is that a good thing? I don't think so. 

Couldn't be like a kid anymore. Lol. 

Still, holding firm at my principles. To be good and pure. Be a better me :) 

Gambateh ne!

又是新的一天了。

把昨晚的累丢掉。

旅行可以让人成长。看着不同环境、背景造就的人们，好神奇。

世界不是非黑即白。我懂得的道理，别人不一定赞同。

渐渐看见自己的颜色，看见自己的模样。

无奈。

当沟通越少，距离就越远。

你用越不明白我想的是什么，我永远看见你的不明白，却又无法解释。

我永远不明白你想的是什么，你永远看见我误会。

所以原本的直线变成了平行线。永远遇不了。

所以你不会想明白我文字背后的意义。我也不清楚你脸孔的表情。

到最后，也许连再见也忘了说，就这样消逝。

没有了沟通，没有了全部。也许到最后才会懂的叹息，当初的沉默。

算了吧。缘生缘灭。又何必强求。

Tried and guess what? 

Ppl doesn't really care in the end.

Lol. Feels stupid.

I am the one who care so much.

So tell me, why should I have stronger bond.

Forget about bonding and forget about the so called"caring".

It's nth anyway. Lol.

Ironic.

思。

今天看了痞子英雄。

谁是谁非有时真的不是用肉眼就能分辨。有时你以为的坏人其实很善良，也可能你以为的好人其实拥有一副面具。也许做好事真的不需要宣扬，也许没有人懂没有人感激也无所谓。要坚持善良何不需要勇气。要经得起好多考验。要善良要正义要慷慨要宽容真的没有那么容易。所以很多人选择容易的路吧。有时我也很自私，选择一个人，放弃分享。我想在这道路上要学习的真的好多。不止是善良而已。。

我要的单纯有何能够真的纯？

小小的鼓励，我也很珍惜。

谢谢，相信我的人。

谢谢，对我善良的人。

:) 

也许别人都不晓得我常怀疑自己。

但，无时无刻的鼓励真的有好大影响。

今天，一个人的风景。我喜欢。

教授问，LIV,will you come here alone if all ur Msia friends are not coming here with you? 

毫不犹豫，Yes。

其实，一个人的旅行，能看见、感受更多。真的打算一个人流浪。

什么是成功？对现在的我来说，真的不是赚很多的钱。我听见每个人的愿望是要有好工作，做个有钱人。也许社会压力，家庭背景影响吧。我的目标暂时不是这样。有时很迷茫，因为我的想法总是个别人不一样。我没有说，只是附和着大家。

一直不愿意让人明白自己的想法，别问为什么。我也不知道。就是默默地把自己的意见收起来。