人类有时太喧哗。

安静了， 才听得见声音。

世界有时太凌乱。

停下了，才看得见方向。

语言有时没意思。

有的，只是为了引起注意。

有的，为了满足自己。

还是音乐有意思。

管他们说什么，就只是人类。

PHappened to write an essay then deleted.

Lol.

Sigh, sometimes I just need to express and forget. 

Sometimes I just don't understand the way how human being thinks 

There is this pink and blue flowers 

Their petals flys off everyday to a far away bird's best with a few bird eggs on it. 

The pink and the blue petals are in peace at first but there is this yellow petals come in one day. 

The peacefulness is destroyed.

As the yellow petals started to cause misund between the pink and blue, the bird eggs actually sees it through. 

It keep quiet because it's not the time for it to break out yet. 

So from the outside it's made itself as hard as possible so that the petals couldn't break it apart 

But from inside it is soft enough for them to kill it. 

So, it called itself as pretender. 

The petals never stops fighting with each other and the egg never stop protecting itself. 

Nobody knows What's happening inside.

They just saw the surface.

So they said. OMG see the petals are poisonous to the egg it won't become a bird anymore. Some says the petals are so beautiful, yucks, can someone just take away that black egg. 

And some says. The egg won't survive 

It seems lifeless. 

Story ends. 

You won't understand what's the point of this. I either.

Lol. So yea, it's just bunch of words without any meaning 

It's just me telling you that meaning behind my words sometimes it's just for expressing not for understanding. 

Don't need to ask coz I found more benefits of keeping silence day by day.

Better Me

昨日，和朋友玩问答游戏。

如果你可以停留在一个岁数，你会停留在哪个岁数，不愿长大？

我说，20.
这个年龄，既不晓得天高地厚，社会残酷，也刚好保留着心灵上的单纯，却不会太过分的幼稚。

长大后，这三个字，从19岁开始就不断出现。


现在的长大后，在别人的身上看见许多。
也许是我不愿接受，不愿改变。长大，可以。但那份单纯，那份真诚，谁能保证还是和当初的100%一样。

接触社会就会不经意地保护自己，不经意地学会防备，心机。
其实有时候会后知后觉，有时候应该会被标签为糊涂派。

其实应该是逃避吧。要狠起来，我知道我可以，要狡猾，其实也不难。要猜要演要虚伪，这些其实也可以变得很自然。

问题是，要变成怎样的人，永远的选择权都在自己手中。
我看见朋友的变化，他不断告诉我，人类太现实。
所以她的防备心增加再增加。

也许用不一样的角度看就会发现不一样的东西吧。
我告诉他，我公司里的同事都很好很好，我的上司也不断教导我。
其实他们有时婉转的话，有时的眼神，我看得懂，只是假装不懂没什么大碍。
我还是会觉得他们很好。是非一定有。但也假装不理，反正语言有时是人类之间的娱乐。
硬要把这个人想得多坏多坏，只会对自己没有好处。

把一切想得很好很好，才会让自己觉得，自己很幸福。这样不会更快乐？

不是催眠。只是换个角度。

有些事，看在眼里，只是沉默，不解释。
要说变，是变得更沉默，变得有话不说。有好有坏。
沉默是因为找不到语言可以带来的影响力。既然没意思，那又何必说。

还是继续加油，betterme。