My kind of cny

Have a rather different kind of new year this year. 

Well, I cooked the reunion dinner for the first time ever in my life. I will be doing it every year. *hopefully*

Although it's not as nice as my mom's, lot of improvements needed, but it's meaningful to me. I am happy I did it at last. Cooking is never easy. And I am gonna practice more and master it. 

Thanks to my family who always support in whatever I do or decided to do. They finished all the dishes :D which made me so happy! 

Next, my first day of new year :D well I thought it's gonna be boring as my cousins went out for movie and I didn't tag along. 

Out of expectation, my uncle came to talk to me. And our chat went long. I love chatting with knowledgable ppl who would shares their experiences and what they know. So I listened a lot and learnt something about malaysia's economy. 

That's pretty fruitful for me :D 

And I know the future isn't easy for me or for all of us. But it's all those obstacles and challenges which make the journey beautiful and meaningful.

I am not losing faith in Malaysia though it's doing badly. I am still a Malaysian. And I love my country. 

Am glad to be inspired and am glad that I have made some changes. Even though it's a little. Gonna be better from time to time. 

Thank god. There's so many great and amazing people around me :) 

Goodnight, I look forward for everythig whether it's good or bad :)

自由。

娃娃眼睛眨呀眨。他不会说话。
就是因为那样的沉默值千金。

站在大染缸前。
还未再向前一步。欲退万里。
一旦沾上任何一染料，又何能漂白变回原本的颜色？



要怎么不鞭策。
其实自虐的形式太多了。
要怎么伸出双手。


其实，不过是飞翔。

狠心的人是放过自己的人还是关闭了心的人？


一千万个姜里，是不是有一个越老越不辣？

围。

当句子的开始是我觉得时，就是先入为主的开始。

太多的自我。太多的自以为是。

对不起，还在维修当中。

很难去分辨自大和强大。

因为若不强就会被欺负。若不强就会慢慢褪色。

很难分辨好人和烂好人。

因为很阻挡和催眠被利用没关系这回事。

我说我累了。其实只是找个借口逃避应该要面对的反思、情绪、挣扎。

你好，围墙。