我什么都不想要。

我只是想当个好人，想帮助别人。

就这么难？

我只是，沉默。

The world is small actually.

So there's few people are from the same course and university as me in this company.

I get to talk to one of the senior today. She is kind of straight forward person and what her advise to me was, DO NOT be a nutritionist. You cant get well pay being a nutritionist. LOL.

and yea, the truth is, in Malaysia, nutrition student usually turn up to be executive in the end.

And again, she told me, DO NOT become executive. lol , she meant in certain companies as their benefits arent good and u got to work like a cow. 

So, basically she is telling me, Nutrition = No future. oh, i mean no BRIGHT future in the sense of money. 

Well, yea, that's true, maybe it was a bad idea engaging myself in nutrition and then turn up i am not going to step into this field. People will then start questioning you like why in the first place you wanna take up nutrition? why you go into a field which is completely strange to you?

hmm, Nutrition knowledge benefits me a lot, it is not a waste when i finish my four years course and i go into another non relevant field in the end. I have no clear idea yet to anticipate in which career.

i need to plan right now, and ya, i lack of a lot things which i want to catch up step by step.

First, i will do something meaningful. LOL. 

Determined to create something and excited too.

Next, rethink something.hmm.

well, my dream is pretty simple actually.

the biggest dream is actually to do something which can help those needy and make a change.

That's what i will feel satisfied.

and other dreams, i will do it one by one.

=D i need more inspirations to get things done.

and i am thankful if you are one of those who actually look high on me.

thanks for trusting me when i dont trust myself, i can feel it from the way of listening, agreeing and taking up my ideas.

and thanks too, those who dont actually agree with me or look down on me. I still need to learn more and i am not good enough, your look down motivated me to become better. and  I will. for sure. its just the matter of time. i am not smart but i willing to learn,thats all i have.

总是要经历一些事，才可以明白些什么。

总是迷迷糊糊得走着走着，才突然清醒发现了什么。

总是沉默的站着，才看见后悔的身影。

总是忘了，忘了过程，忘了别人，牢记太多的约束，害怕太多的不知数。

然后，慢慢的，有一些东西会蒸发，消失。

结果，又默默的接受。我以为是这样，就只是这样。