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New year rocks and everything starts from Zero!
But...Alright, why now.
New year starts with... Hmm..

Can I pretend that I didn't know that ?



Anyway, I still want to rock my life.
2012, a miserable,lost year for me perhaps.. Or maybe I get to rmb only those sad moments and forgot that I am actually blessed enough.

I rmb I count down at my hostel last year.. That's really a sad starting with all upset and disappointment filling up my heart.
I remember watching fireworks alone and the fireworks are so damn far away .. I saw some lights without any sound..
So that night my roomie slept quite early. And most of my housemates weren't there.. I ran out of my house and went up to the highest floor.. Stand alone asking myself why am I here on this island counting down... So yea, emotional baby.LOL.

So people were yelling counting down and I was standing there alone telling myself , it's a brand new year. Alright got to be tougher I guess.

So during the end of 2012, I swear to god I never want to stay at this bloody place for my new year. So yes, I stayed at hometown. I guess god still love me as I dropped one of my subject which mean my exam is not on 31 dec. LOL! Although I made different choice with other people but I guess I have made the right one.

Throughout 2012, I have changed a lot.
Super different. Those ups and downs.
Thanks for those who bear with me and am sorry to show so much emotional faces and also cold faces.
Am not going to be the same like what I used to be in 2012. * alright , I wish I don't end up saying without actually doing..

To change to be better, I need time :)
Smile more smile more:)

And dear LORD,I wish u heard my prayers..grant me wisdom and strength

I wish I can overcome weakness, sadness, upset and disappointments that filled me up all these times..

I wish I can be stronger:)
I wish I can expect less and give more to people to friends and family:)

Be good and be pure as what I want from the start..

To have smiley faces I guess I need to give my smiley out first. Smile no matter what though Erm it's quite hard for me.

Alright , I will still be cool but I guess that's my nature as I not cute and friendly type:) anyway, just be good and I know myself what should and what shouldn't.


Fill me with love, dear god :)

No matter what decision I make in the end, I hope I will not regret, nope it's a must to be no regrets..

Last, 2013, I gonna make a decision that might or might not change my entire life.


Cheers!! And rocks!
*finger crossed*