Work

End of first week of intern. 

Well, kinda complicated feelings.

The fear inside isn't cure yet. 

Kinda weird stepping in adult's world.

I have to admit that I am not yet an adult like seriously I am not. 

I don't know what is fake what is pretend. Lol coz I kinda treat everything's real instead of u know, with mask.

Guess I am still trying hard to deal with what's so called social. 

Guess that's long way to learn.

Well back to the topic. 

Yea, internship, the real working life.

I was thinking constantly whether this is the kind of job I want in future. 

Seriously, I don't really think so.

A nutritionist. Nope, that's not me.

Colleagues kinda shock when they heard that I didn't want to be a nutritionist when I graduated next time. Lol they are not the first to react like this.

Yea, u know, I love arts although I don't seem to be creative or what. 

I seem to be stupid and blur. LOL.

I seriously made lots of mistakes which I want to laugh at myself but I guess it annoys smart people a lot. 

Thanks for those who bear with me constant blur and stupid actions. 

I still blur for my future. I tot I wanted to work in a big company. Hmm, but after the internship I will somehow change my mind. Lol. 

But anyway, still feel grateful that my colleagues are super nice although I am not sure they like me or not but I like them. Well, hmm, guess I need to boost up my confidence level. Coz somehow I think communication is super important coz I see many people actually just blowing water. In fact all we need is good in blowing water and make things seems like they are true and sound reliable. 

I am way too honest that I don't know how to twist words into a nicer version. Lol, u know, facts is facts, lying is quite a hmm hard thing to do as it against my principle. Anyhow, trying to find a way out. 9 weeks more, I hope it ends quick. Hahaha  finger cross and strive for better.

Still believe that everyone is good even tough I was told constantly that people do fake their smile and u don't know when they talk bad about u. Well, as long as I talk good about them. I just want to be better. That's all. 

选择变聪明不难，但坚持善良不简单。

要坚持善良就要看自己画的线在哪