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It's been a long day.

Work at midnight 3am till the next morning.

I thought i will be tired like hell but nope.

What i know is i want to work like cow. 

Being busy makes me feel better.

I like the feeling of not having even one second to rest or breath.

Yea, i guess i like self-abuse a lot. lol.

Well, the truth is i dont like socialising. It's not because of humna-phobia, shy, introvert or anything.

It's just that i dont want to talk. yea, i know. back to last time.

It's just that i want to stay alone but i wanna work.

I wish i could work 24 hours non stop. Just dont let me have one minute to think.

lol. 

yea, i gave up some of me. i guess.

not gave up its just. maybe. i guess. temporary.

lol. no. don't tell me all those theories. i know way better than you. 

It's just that i cant apply it all now. it's useless.

maybe thats how i know better how it feels next time when somebody have the same feelings.

i will know what's going on and what he or she needs the most.

and yea, i guess those walls are getting crazily thick and unbreakable. it's a bad news.

it is really nothing good for me. I know but i can't help with it. Just can't.