First of May

It's first of May! 

It's not usual for me to write for the first day of every month. But, it's Labor Day. 

Meaning? I am free.

Not entirely free though. Still lots of unfinished job awaiting me and I m gonna work today but nah, it's still a holiday.

Woke up with meaningful video of a 12 years old kid. Yup, it made my day.

You won't get over fears that you have if you don't try at the very first place. 

So here I am. I am afraid of judgements. I am afraid how the other humans on this planet judge me. It might be easy for every other people to ignore all the judgements but not me. 

Yes, I always want to prove that I am capable for something, I always want to be the ideal person that every other people expect in their opinions. 

But, I'm gonna change these. I am not sure how far can I go. In fact I am uncertain of so many things. But there's only one thing I have proven right for all the time, if you don't stand up for yourself, if you don't have faith in yourself, nobody's gonna believe in you. 

Fell down and more falls each and every day. It's hard to get up, it's normal wishing there's someone to pull you up,it's okay to stay down for awhile.but don't keep that status forever. You just gonna fight back. You just gonna trust that you are possible. 

It's first of May. Just start all over again :)

And I am gonna be somewhere I should be!