I will still be your passenger in life.

I am sorry, I have planned it that way. 

The walls, they are there. I couldn't break it myself. Neither do you.

You have been awesome, lovely, adorable but I am still standing in the shadow watching the party goes on and on.

Watching this bunch of people dancing over and over.

I am sorry I did not step in I did not join when you reach out to me. I am glad you tried. 

But, that's it. I guess I am just scared of another heart breaking moment that might happened next second.

I guess I am fine with being hard, being mysterious, being weird, being quiet or whatever relevant adjective you can think of.

For now.

I am waiting and I am counting down.