1.1

New year rocks and everything starts from Zero!
But...Alright, why now.
New year starts with... Hmm..

Can I pretend that I didn't know that ?



Anyway, I still want to rock my life.
2012, a miserable,lost year for me perhaps.. Or maybe I get to rmb only those sad moments and forgot that I am actually blessed enough.

I rmb I count down at my hostel last year.. That's really a sad starting with all upset and disappointment filling up my heart.
I remember watching fireworks alone and the fireworks are so damn far away .. I saw some lights without any sound..
So that night my roomie slept quite early. And most of my housemates weren't there.. I ran out of my house and went up to the highest floor.. Stand alone asking myself why am I here on this island counting down... So yea, emotional baby.LOL.

So people were yelling counting down and I was standing there alone telling myself , it's a brand new year. Alright got to be tougher I guess.

So during the end of 2012, I swear to god I never want to stay at this bloody place for my new year. So yes, I stayed at hometown. I guess god still love me as I dropped one of my subject which mean my exam is not on 31 dec. LOL! Although I made different choice with other people but I guess I have made the right one.

Throughout 2012, I have changed a lot.
Super different. Those ups and downs.
Thanks for those who bear with me and am sorry to show so much emotional faces and also cold faces.
Am not going to be the same like what I used to be in 2012. * alright , I wish I don't end up saying without actually doing..

To change to be better, I need time :)
Smile more smile more:)

And dear LORD,I wish u heard my prayers..grant me wisdom and strength

I wish I can overcome weakness, sadness, upset and disappointments that filled me up all these times..

I wish I can be stronger:)
I wish I can expect less and give more to people to friends and family:)

Be good and be pure as what I want from the start..

To have smiley faces I guess I need to give my smiley out first. Smile no matter what though Erm it's quite hard for me.

Alright , I will still be cool but I guess that's my nature as I not cute and friendly type:) anyway, just be good and I know myself what should and what shouldn't.


Fill me with love, dear god :)

No matter what decision I make in the end, I hope I will not regret, nope it's a must to be no regrets..

Last, 2013, I gonna make a decision that might or might not change my entire life.


Cheers!! And rocks!
*finger crossed*

1230.2

生日快乐，我对自己说。

：）二十一岁。
我想好像少了些什么。究竟我在寻觅着些什么？
呵呵，看来还蛮多人叫我要快乐。
是的。快乐。

今天，发生的事，虽然不是在自己身上但还蛮受影响。再加上无奈。

无奈是最近的口头褝吧！有时候真的无奈透底。有时怪自己，干嘛那么坦白，干嘛那么成实？

把一切埋藏起来自己解决嘛！干嘛倾诉？乖乖做听众，然后自己的问题自己解决。

明白这两个字不必期望，自己懂就得了。解释屁。哈哈。

好了，唠叨完毕。：）




Alright am lazy to type Chinese.. Okay
2013, there are two things I gonna do for my new year. I mean coming new year..
Have no excuse to evade problems I am facing and I gonna think it right and do it right. God bless me please!!!

Grant me wisdom and strength.

Once chosen will never regret :)
Please be more happy
And please hide every emoness, sadness, upset and disappointment! Please reduce negative thinkings and smile more.

I can make myself happy :) because I am blessed.. Muahaha..
Alright getting myself crazy and silly will keep me cheerful..

Rawr!!!! What doesn't kill me make me stronger!!!

No more weak moments and no more needing people to comfort.

Well, heal in one second, I mean one minute la, and yea, make people smile b my lame jokes plus crazy siao actions and not people make me smile;)


Yea, siao po wannabe . Sot.

1230. 1

Turning 21 at last.
Though I don't feel like I am already a young adult.

1230 is always a special date for me :)
The end of the year but not very end yet.

This year, I guess my wish list will be slightly different.. :)
Anyway, gonna be more mature perhaps?
Walk the path I need to or I want to.

Reminiscing again?

I guess I am way too boyish xD

It's hard to be like a soft type girl lol

I am really blessed:)
Thanks for reminding me to appreciate what I have :)

Hey friends u guys are awesome and I do thanks god to let me have u guys in my life!!

Appreciation that couldn't be tell in words.. I hope u guys know how grateful and thankful I feel:)

Music

I wish to walk a different path

Exams? I really wish to study for knowledge.

Forcing myself to memorize doesn't help me to remember all these precious knowledge for life

I guess I am back to the old me, evading.
AGain..
That's not good and that's not right.


Sigh.. How to make my environment better so that I won't need to leave.

Lost. Again.

Long way to be unbreakable...

Sigh.